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07/31/2026

🩷 One More Little Adventure
Today's adventure was a short one.

We were only outside for about ten minutes before an Amazon truck came through and the neighbors' two big dogs were outside. It startled Eminem, and she made it very clear she was ready to go home.
So we did.

I've also seen a few comments from people saying these videos are becoming too hard to watch.
I understand.
Truly.

Please take care of your mental health. If you need to step away for a while, I completely respect that. There is no judgment here.

I also wanted to share why I keep posting.
These videos aren't just updates anymore.
They're how I'm getting through this.

Recording these little moments keeps me grounded. It keeps me focused on what I still get to do with her instead of getting lost in what I know is coming. It gives me something to pour my love into instead of letting my mind spiral.

This is how I'm coping.
So if you need to step back, please do.
And if you're still here walking this journey with us...
Thank you.
It means more than I can ever say. ❤️🐾


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07/31/2026

🐾 Little Pieces of Her
Today I made a few little air-dry clay paw prints with Eminem.

Some of them turned out beautifully.
Some of them... well... let's just say she wasn't overly impressed with my artistic vision. 😅

The front paw prints came out really well. The back ones are a little more "abstract."
And that's okay.

One of the pieces is a little heart. I poked a hole through it because I'm going to turn it into a pendant and carry a little piece of my girl with me wherever I go.

I've noticed you all are getting a lot of videos and content from me today.
The truth is... this is how I'm coping.
Every time I stop and sit still, my mind starts wandering to what's coming. So instead, I'm choosing to stay present. To make memories. To capture these little moments while I still can.

Thank you for letting me share this journey with you.
It means more than you know. ❤️🐾



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07/31/2026

🩷 She Doesn't Need a Full Belly Where She's Going

A few minutes ago, I grabbed the treat bag and gave it a little shake.
For just a moment...
She was my girl again.

She heard the crinkle, made her way over to me, and ate treats right out of my hand.
And yes... she got extra.
Because I'm fully aware she doesn't need a full belly where she's going.

She needs comfort.
She needs love.
She needs to know that every moment she has left is filled with the things that make her happy.

So today, there are no rules.
If she wants treats, she gets treats.
If she wants to nap, she naps.
If she wants to go outside, we'll go outside.
Today is about her.

I've been doing my best to stay strong through all of this. Every time I start to fall apart, I remind myself, "Not now. Not yet."
Because right now, she needs me calm so she can be calm.

There will be time for my grief.
Today...
Today belongs to her.
❤️🐾



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07/31/2026

❤️ Holding Two Truths at Once
This morning has been... complicated.
Last night, I had decided I wasn't going to give Eminem her medication this morning. The vet told me it would be okay if I chose not to.
But when I woke up today, I changed my mind.
I didn't want to risk her having a seizure. I didn't want her to be uncomfortable. So I gave her her medication and her Mirataz, because my job today is the same as it's been every day since all of this started...
To keep her as comfortable as I possibly can.
The hardest part?
Yesterday and today, she's been more alert.
She even ate on her own last night and again this morning.
Seeing those little glimpses of my girl makes this so much harder.
And yet...
I'm also finding more and more lumps on her body. The swelling in her lymph nodes has spread, and there are now lumps behind her ears. She gets tired so much more easily now. Even after something as simple as jumping up to get a drink of water, she needs to rest.
So today, I'm holding two truths at once.
I'm seeing signs of life.....while also watching this disease continue to take her body.
I don't believe she's getting better. I think this is one last rally before the end. As much as I wish that wasn't true, I can't ignore everything else her body is telling me.
I also want to say thank you.
I've been reading every comment, every message, every prayer, every story you've shared with me.
If you've noticed that I've mostly just been reacting instead of replying, please know it isn't because your words don't mean something to me.
It's because every time I try to respond... I cry.
Right now, I'm trying very hard to stay present and get through today. There will be time to completely fall apart later.
For now...
I'm choosing to be with my girl.
Thank you all for loving both of us so fiercely through this. It means more than I will ever be able to put into words. ❤️🐾

07/31/2026

Psychologist Dr. JJ Kelly says the "male loneliness epidemic" might actually be a result of low emotional intelligence. She stresses that this is not an attack on men as individuals, but rather an attack on the system that raised them.

“Society has told men that the only emotion they’re allowed to validate is anger. Everything else, especially loneliness, gets coded as weakness,” Dr. JJ explains. “And everybody finds ‘shame’ uncomfortable. So now you’ve got men who are being shamed for their loneliness and running away from it. We are so far from problem-solving at that point.”

07/31/2026

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07/31/2026

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07/31/2026

❤️ I Get By With a Little Help From My Friends
Today reminded me that we were never meant to carry life's hardest moments alone.

This is Thursday night, the night before I help Eminem cross the Rainbow Bridge.
And somehow...

I was hardly alone all day.
Carrie Whitaker Preston came over this afternoon and spent hours with me. She even took me out to lunch.

Rae of Sunshine Art spent time with me on Zoom this evening.

My bub Derek Messinger called to check on me, then came over to spend time with both of us and say goodbye to Eminem before taking me to dinner.

My cousin Dee Mohr called just to check in and make sure I was okay.

Tonya Sue messaged me from work to see how I was doing.

Throughout the day, people texted, called, showed up, checked in, and reminded me that I don't have to carry this alone.

Before everyone came over, Eminem and I even got one more little adventure outside together.
It's still hard.

Tomorrow is still tomorrow.
But because of all of you... I haven't had to spend today alone with my grief.

I've spent today surrounded by love.
To every person who called, texted, messaged, checked in, came over, shared a meal with me, or simply held space for me...
Thank you.

You have carried me through one of the hardest days of my life.
And because of your love, this hasn't become one of my darkest.
I will never forget that.
Thank you. ❤️

07/30/2026

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07/30/2026

🎶 Sittin' on the Counter of the Bay
Sometimes Dark Humor Finds You 🩷🐾
Eminem hopped up on the counter to get a drink of water.

When she finished, she turned around and just sat there, perched on the counter, looking adorable... and for whatever reason, "(Sittin' On) The Dock of the Bay" popped into my head.

So I did what my brain does and started singing...
🎶 "Sittin' on the Counter of the Bay..." 🎶
Then I got to the next line...
"Watching time slip away..."..and immediately thought, "Well... those lyrics got dark real fast." 😅

That definitely wasn't my intention. It was just one of those moments where my brain connected the dots before my heart caught up.

Humor has always been one of the ways I survive hard things. Sometimes it's intentional. Sometimes it just sneaks in. And sometimes, especially when you're grieving, it comes with a little extra darkness.

So here's a little 40-second glimpse of my girl... sitting on the counter... inspiring an accidental parody.
Sometimes we laugh.
Sometimes we cry.
Sometimes we do both at the exact same time.
❤️🐾




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