12/03/2021
šI grow weary of social media. We see that āthey have it all figured outā & feel the pressure to present the same. And so the cycle continues⦠ā
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Meanwhile, quietly, we feel the pressure to have all the answers, to know exactly where we are going, and when. And I donāt know about you, but in 2020 that illusion of having it all figured out really rocked the boat for me.
So this is me being real in the sense that, these days, this is where Iām at:
šI donāt really know what the plan is. And to be honest, that is wrapped in so much fear, and at times an overwhelming sense of failure.
šMost days I feel like a hot mess and learning to be gentle with both my heart and my head feels like a full-time job.
š”In the challenging or confusing seasons, being alone in the comfort of my own company feels the safest (which I know can both heal and hurt).
š§As a highly sensitive person, my auto response is to cry. Happy or sad - thereās no middle ground, there will always be tears. I just feel s**t deeply.
š¼I took on a new job, completely outside of anything I have experience with. Why? Because for my own health and wellness - it means for a season of life taking a step back from a business centered around just that. Ironic, right?
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But truly, as I embrace all the unknowns, all the imperfections, I realize there is a big, bold world outside of āthisā (social media), that most times actually welcomes my uncertainty. And when I donāt feel like I have to ācheck inā or āstay relevantā on social media, I actually find a lot of joy in that reality.
All this to say friends, I hope you know how okay it is to just be (whatever that looks like right now). I share this so you donāt feel alone. Come, sit at the table of uncertainty - Iām right here with you.
Iām checking out from social media for a little while. If you donāt see posts, donāt panic. Iām alright - probably more than alright. I am just as human as everyone else and am diving into a little more ābeingā and a little less ādoingā. Lots of love for you. ā¤ļø