03/18/2026
After 2 years of of physical oppression. The journey begins. It's been a long time coming. All I want to do Is get back to normal. A quest that for the most part, seems out of reach. One MAJOR setback after another. My life has been overall frustrating and very unsatisfying. So so so much has been taken from me, not just personally but on a physical level, which is everything, especially when the chips are down And life sucks, I would normally revert to working out, running, competition, etc.
Every time I got a little glimpse of progress, i had to hurdle over another obstacle, only these obstacles I couldn't defeat; something I'm not used to. That said, it was part of the journey, a very long, grueling and painful one. With all these hills and valleys in life, there is way too much time onthe decent. But now I'm climbing and I will make it and I will WIN. I don't know how to lose even though losing was part of the process. My glimpse is now my vision and driving force to get back up to the top. I've been down too long.
Now there is still massive amount of physical healing that still needs to happen. My shoulder is still only 70% as my progress dipped a bit. My spine is misaligned in 2 segments and some discs have degenerated a bit in 2 segments. Those things I can fix and work diligently every day doing so. The ONE thing I don't see a happy ending is from a condition i developed back in August called Anhidrosis, basically I lost the ability to sweat, which means I can no longer regulate my body temperature. This condition is extremely uncomfortable and can be fatal. However, I pay enough attention to my body and I get more than enough warning signs that tell me to stop before I die of heat stroke.
there is still more to get through. I'm back and I'm determined. all my years of training, Competition and even raising my little girl, has taught me how to be resilient and how to prevail when staring in the face of adversity. I learned how to battle, be strong, commit and be driven. And most importantly, learn from mistakes and use them as tools to succeed in my next phase
