08/21/2025
1 week post op ā
On 7/21, I sustained an ACL injury playing basketball. Initially, I didnāt believe it to be ACL but I knew something was wrong with my knee.
Fast forward 2 weeks and my surgeon is beginning our phone call with āIām sorry buddy but I donāt have good newsā¦ā
I retore my right ACL with some meniscus damage as well š
I could write an entire novel about the feelings that flooded me afterwards.
At first, it was complete numbness. I didnāt have tears or thoughts. My brain was empty.
Then the tears came rolling.
ā¦and grief
ā¦and anger
ā¦and disbelief
Through all this, it was time to lock in. If I wanted to return to sports again, Iād have to undergo this surgery at my age (knowing that I previously was not a coper)
I underwent surgery on 8/14/25. This surgery was more complicated than the first. It included:
š¦µš½Quad tendon autograft with internal brace
š¦µš½Lateral extra-articular tenodesis
š¦µš½Partial lateral meniscectomy
Following the operation, I didnāt realize how much pain Iād be in once the nerve block wore off. I attempted to muscle it out the pain was unbearable.
Basic human rights were pulled from me.
I couldnāt walk.
Getting to the bathroom felt like a marathon.
Couldnāt get comfortable sleeping like a mummy.
Constantly dizzy.
Every attempt at my own rehab failed in the first couple days.
And donāt even get me started on trying to sit to take a dumpā¦
Whenever someone asks, Iām doing āokayā
But Iām not. Iām not okay. This sucks.
I know there is a reason for this. God has put me here for a purpose. I have no idea what and Iām not even going to attempt to guess.
But I also know, with the support of Him, family and friends, I will get through this. Iām not sure in what condition or what I have to do to get there but I will find the light eventually.
Send all your love and prayers ā¤ļøšš¼