07/30/2017
The following is a short passage about a way of soul searching:
I took a little trip recently. I went back in time. Totally contradicting what I talk about and what other experts have spoken about when they say, “Don’t look back because we can’t change the past. You cannot live in the past because you are here now in the present moment.” Well, I’ve decided to break my rule as well as theirs and step back in time a bit. I went back to yesterday. Why? Because there was a moment in time where my power was absolute and I had a drive out of this world. There was a moment in time when I had a feeling of connectivity to my purpose and nothing or no one could shake it. I was laser focused and it came to fruition in such a way that I couldn’t believe it myself. My life changed immediately by each second and I was in a honeymoon stage with my dream and my purpose.
I went back to remember the people, experience the feelings, express the gratitude and emotion that came with it all as I was carrying out the great work by which I was designed to do. I went to visit a friend who has been on his mission for quite some time. When I saw him I was reminded of the first time we really crossed paths and became more like brothers. It was during a 5am training session where in the middle of a “High end luxury brand fitness club” where I totally led him through a series of unconventional exercises that unlocked the primal survival instincts within him. Not to mention he is an ex marine soldier so we had fun with that. When I saw him leading his class, I smiled and it took me back several years to the crew we used to have and even the workout sessions we had in those days. I thought about the times he took my classes and the intensity in which I would teach at with him there along with my other friends.
It was in that moment I realized that in order to proceed forward, I need to bring some old feelings back. I need that hunger where I didn’t care about what was at stake I just wanted to do what I was born and bred to do. I wanted to cultivate all of what I have endured throughout my life and put it to work the way I used to. Unapologetically directly from the heart all in 1000%. My story is filled with wins and losses and it would seem like I’m an unlikely candidate to be where I am at this point. But I remain unsatisfied. I remain unsatisfied because I allowed myself to disconnect with parts of the original dream. I let my window become cloudy. I went back so that I could break the window and see, feel, taste and experience who I want to be! I went back so that today would start my best days going forward.