09/22/2023
I remember the moment thinking "If I can do THIS, I can do ANYTHING!"
But the thoughts only a few months earlier were more like "I'm a failure and I have no idea what I'm doing with my life" 😞
I'll take you back to a crazy Summer in 2017.
I'd kicked my husband out after it seemed like he was cheating (he was but of course was swearing it was a "misunderstanding.") But he'd begged to do couple's counseling. I figured I'd owed it to both of us since I'd made this commitment to him to be married (but like, he was already breaking HIS commitments 🤦🏼♀️)
He was living in his car, doing Postmates, and smoking 🌱. Every time I saw him we'd get into a huge argument because I didn't trust him, and he generally was being a jerk.
But he thought couple's counseling was going great! 👍 (it wasn't)
He finally said he was moving back to the East Coast and it wasn't fair I either of us to do long distance so we should divorce.
"Ok."
I mean, thank God! I could finally step off this chaotic roller coaster and put it all to an end.
But I felt like a failure. I'd failed at marriage. I wasn't good enough to keep my spouse from cheating. But I'd also wasted half my 20s on this failure.
I was lost and broken. 🧭
I needed to do something and by something I mean anything - working with a shaman, expanding my spirituality, taking dance classes, trying alcohol. LIVING. 🎨
And then I booked myself a solo trip to San Francisco🌉 - a place I'd always dreamed of going.
At first it was anxiety inducing- staying in the worst part of town in a hostile in a room with a woman who was more than a little odd... "what the f was I doing here?"
But the next day, I got myself on a bus in a city I didn't know and took myself to the 🌸Botanical Gardens. I was DOING it! It may seem small to you, to buy to take my independence back and to find myself completely capable of doing exactly what I wanted ALONE was SO liberating.
"I can do anything!" 🥹🌞
And so can YOU!
Years later, I'm doing things I wouldn't have believed on that day, and my life's work is helping women who have felt stuck in their mediocre life completely transform themselves in ✨ Soul Led Magic ✨