04/20/2022
"My body is broken"
It's been over a year since our loses and it's still a daily thought I struggle with.
Some days, this thought is in the back of my mind like an annoying beep of a truck backing up outside the window as you sit in the coffee shop. Other days it's like someone is screaming at me -- two inches away from my face, red-faced, veins popping, spit spraying.
I've talked to many women who have the same terrible, unwelcome thought living in their minds after they have suffered a pregnancy loss.
I heard someone explain it differently the other day and I felt I could take a deep breath. It helped me in the depth of my soul, I pray it helps you too.
"We live in a broken world, yes. But our bodies are not broken. They were touched by brokenness, but our bodies can heal."
*Our bodies have been touched by the brokenness of this world, but they are not broken.* (Read that again)
We may never have the answers this side of Heaven...why things play out the way they do. Honestly, I hate that we won't have the answers. I like answers to my questions. Don't you? I think what we are looking for when we are looking for answers is a comfort to our pain. A refuge in our storm. A calm to our chaos...
Our thoughts are so powerful. It takes about 300 times for a thought you think to turn into a belief. Once you have a belief about something, it's hard for us to break it. BUT this can go both ways -- we can change our beliefs about if our body is good.
What is it that you want to believe about your body? I'll go first. I want to believe that my body is good. That my body can sustain life, even if it hasn't happened yet. I move my body because I love my body, not because I hate it. I nourish my body because I love my body, not because I hate it. I believe that even though my body was touched by the brokenness of this world, it is not broken. Healing is possible. Healing is happening. I live in the Kingdom of abundance, not of lack. I serve a God who is always with me....giving me strength and peace, even on my hardest days.
What is it you want to believe about your body?
Let's start changing our thoughts today, so our beliefs line up with the TRUTH. xo