10/29/2021
Hi 👋🏼 It’s been awhile 😅 I haven’t really felt like showing up here and honestly haven’t really known how🤷🏻♀️
To be completely transparent, I felt more “worthy” and like I had more of a “right” to share fitness related content when I was full blown shredded and in the depths of prep. And once I got to a healthy body weight and was fueling properly? I felt like nobody would even care 🙄 (major eye roll x 1000. Who cares if nobody cares?!🤦🏻♀️)
I have always firmly believed that fitness comes in all varieties, shapes, & sizes so why have I been going so far against what I truly believe at my core? The mind does crazy things to your perception of things after you reach stage conditioning and let me tell ya, I’m happy to finally feel like myself again (only took 3 months🥴🥲)
On that note……THREE MONTHS🤯 It’s taken me roughly three months to actually begin to feel at peace with myself again. That felt like a very long time 🙃
I was so focused on what I had “lost” since ending prep ➡️ lines, super strong “discipline” to stick to my diet, motivation from results to keep going everyday, that I had briefly lost sight of what I’ve gained➡️ energy, quality sleep, freedom to go out, the ability to think clearly, time to focus on friends & family, enjoying work more, and too many other things to even name.
Life on this side feels really good. I still haven’t quite navigated how to get back to sharing content on here but I know with time things will slowly fall back into place and I’ll get back into the groove of sharing all things fitness💪🏼
Also, a little reminder to take a break when you need it from anything that’s weighing you down. I felt pressured to post here and once I finally stopped pressuring myself about it, the desire to share came back🤍
📸: old video from prep bc I honestly haven’t taken any pics or videos lately
😂🤷🏻♀️