09/06/2026
Rivergirl Sunshine Sunday
This Labor Day weekend marks the last busy weekend of our season, and if you’ve followed along this year, you already know the river has asked us to be extraordinarily flexible. We started with drought, moved into summer storms, went back to drought, then suddenly found ourselves reaching for sweatshirts in temperatures that felt more October than August. Sprinkled between it all have been some amazingly perfect river days. There have also been more “We are closed today” posts than we would ever choose to make.
Yesterday was supposed to be one of the big ones.
We had a packed day ahead of us, rain forecasted for around 6pm, and only two staff helping us negotiate hundreds of moving pieces. So we did what we do. We made a plan. Boats & tubes were prepped. Reservations organized. Timing worked out. Everyone knew where they needed to be and how we were going to keep the day flowing smoothly.
And then a storm cell popped up. Half the day had to be canceled.
Canceling river trips is never simply pressing a button and saying, “Sorry, weather.” You’re looking into the faces of people who arrived excited for an afternoon of fun, relaxation and making river memories with the people they love, and you have to be the person who tells them those plans have changed. Then come the little huddles as families regroup and compare schedules. Can we wait it out? Can we come tomorrow? Should we take the rain credit and come back next year? Then there are the people already on the river who need to be reached, the equipment prepared the day before for hundreds of guests that now has to be gathered and put away, and the staff who had arrived ready and eager for a packed day suddenly moving with something closer to dejection.
Yet they keep moving. Because that is part of this job. We go with the flow. We do it safely. We stay calm. We hope for another day.
There is a particular weight that comes with being responsible for someone else’s experience. Anyone who has spent their working life taking care of people probably knows it. Sometimes your job is to quietly hold someone else’s disappointment while setting your own aside. You listen. You explain. You offer alternatives. You absorb frustration that isn’t really directed at you at all, but at the situation. And because you understand why they are disappointed, you give them room to feel it. What you don’t always notice is where all of those little moments go after you’ve carried them for everyone else.
Eventually everyone left. And for a little while, it was just me closing out the shop.
That’s when the floodgates opened. Completely unexpectedly, I cried.
Not because of one canceled afternoon. Not because I was sitting there replaying everything that had gone wrong this season. It wasn’t wallowing, weakness, self-pity or even sadness in the way we normally think of sadness.
My body was simply done holding everything.
The drought. The storms. The decisions. The responsibility. The constant recalculating. The physical work. The emotional work. The people looking to you for an answer when sometimes the only honest answer is, “I don’t know yet.” The intensity of an entire season spent trying to remain the calm at the center of whatever weather, problem or unexpected turn arrived next.
Being the calm at the center of a storm can be deceptive. Because calm doesn’t mean nothing is happening inside. Sometimes it means you’ve been holding everything steady until there is finally somewhere safe enough to put it down.
So I did. For however long my body needed, I let it all pour out. And when it was over, I wasn’t empty. I was simply fine. I closed the shop and went home.
There I found people I love standing in the kitchen making a Mexican dinner completely from scratch. There was laughter. There were potatoes, mushrooms, cactus, guacamole, cotija and handmade corn tortillas. Food passed between loving hands. Stories bounced across the room. Nothing needed solving. Nobody needed an answer from me.
And somewhere between bites, a quiet little voice inside whispered: “It’s going to be okay. This is why you do it.”
And maybe that was the part I needed to remember most.
So much of what we do here is about creating space for other people to make memories with the people they love. We spend our days helping someone else relax, reconnect, celebrate, explore, laugh, or simply disappear into the river for a little while. Yesterday reminded me that responsibility has weight precisely because it is attached to something we care about. Family has weight. Community has weight. Leadership has weight. Small business has weight. The work we choose to love often asks something of us in return.
Sometimes that weight becomes exhausting. And sometimes, when the day is over, the people we love quietly remind us why we keep picking it back up.
So this Sunshine Sunday, I’m grateful for the release as much as I am for the resilience.
For the people who keep moving when the plan changes. For a staff willing to gather boats & tubes instead of launching them. For customers who understand that sometimes loving the river means respecting what the sky is telling us. For the strange strength that allows us to hold things together when they need holding.
And also for the wisdom of finally letting go when they don’t.
Most of all, I’m grateful that after a season spent giving people places to make memories with the people they love, I came home and remembered that I get to make some too. Around a table. With handmade tortillas. And people who love me.
The river will flow again. So will we.
What do you keep showing up for, even when it exhausts you, because somewhere beneath the weight there is love?