12/21/2024
In 2009 I was diagnosed with breast cancer and did chemo, surgery, and radiation. I remember when I finished treatment I had what looked like a 1/2 inch buzz cut on my head, one sagging breast, one burnt skin indent on the other side where my other breast used to be, a heart full of resentment, and massive fatigue. A few months later I complained to my oncologist about how tired I was and he had the balls to look me in the eye and say, you need to exercise. It felt like a disrespectful slap in the face after all I’d just been through. I was thinking how the actual hell can this man think I have the energy to exercise, even if it’s just a walk, when I am too tired to live?
I begrudgingly got on my treadmill simply to prove him wrong. To prove that there was no way I could have the energy to walk and also get through the day. That way I could report back at my next visit that I needed some magic solution that didn’t involve me moving my body. If that magic solution didn’t exist I would have that permission slip in hand to complain about my current fatigued state. I could just wave that little slip any time I wanted. And I could remain the same. Which meant I would be tired and feeling weak.
To my surprise, I realized that a short little walk actually somehow, someway, gave me a little boost of energy. I realized I could start with just 5 minutes and work my way up from there as I got stronger. And so I ate my humble pie and I walked. When I felt impossible fatigue again I would remember that I had stopped moving my body. And I could choose to start moving it again. Or I could complain of fatigue. It was my choice.
Don’t get me wrong, I ate a lot of pie between 2009 and 2020 before it really clicked.
Awareness. Of the benefits to my life when I moved my body.
Repetition. Repeating the act of walking on the treadmill or outside.
Consistency over time. Walking each week, each step adds up over time.
Sometimes we need someone to look us in the eye and say it, the thing we know yet don’t want to believe or hear.
Do you spend time wishing you felt good in your body? Do you want more energy, strength, stamina, endurance, and vitality? If that’s a yes, you can and need to exercise. If you’re fatigued you can simply start with walks.
Humble pie. It was hard to choke down, but it was one of the best pies I’ve ever had in my life.
Pics: 2009 nearing end of treatments.
2012 in the middle of the long cycle of remembering to eat the pie.
Coming in 2025 for beginners, a 3 month app based plan to get you moving. We all start somewhere. This is taking it back to the beginning. It’s simple and it’s basic. You can create some energy for yourself and start to feel better without anyone looking over your shoulder while you’re figuring this out. You can gain awareness, build repetition, and consistency over time. And that experience will remain with you. And you will remember.
Check back in 2025. I’ll post here when it’s ready.