05/16/2026
🎈🎈🎈🎈🎈🎈🎈🎈🎈🎈🎈🎈🎈🎈🎈🎈🎈🎈🎈🎈. I am 60 years old today.
I was born in the year of the Fire Horse. Now I’m returning to the Fire Horse. The cycle is complete.
People ask what it feels like to be 60, and I don’t know how to answer that because inside I don’t feel 60 at all. My body knows — the knees remember, the hips remind me, the mirror doesn’t lie — but my mind is still somewhere else, some other age I can’t quite name. Thirty? Forty? I don’t know. Just... not this.
But here I am anyway.
60 years is a lot of waves.
Some crashed hard. Some rolled in gentle. Some I saw coming from miles away and braced for. Some hit me sideways and knocked me under before I even knew what was happening.
There’s been love. Deep, whole-body love that felt like coming home. And there’s been heartbreak that cracked me open and left me wondering if I’d ever feel whole again.
There’s been joy so pure I wanted to bottle it — those moments where everything is exactly right and you know it even while it’s happening, and you think please let me remember this forever.
And there’s been pain. The kind that doesn’t fade. The kind that sits in your bones and becomes part of you. Loss. Grief. The ache of things ending before you were ready.
Some of it I’ve forgotten. Some of it I carry everywhere.
My body is changing in ways I didn’t expect. Things hurt that didn’t used to hurt. Things don’t work the way they used to work. I look in the mirror and think who is that woman? because she looks 60 and I don’t feel like her yet.
But I’m learning something about that gap — the space between how I feel and what I see. It’s not wrong. It’s just... true. My body is doing its thing, aging the way bodies do. And my mind is doing its thing, refusing to settle into any one age because there’s too much left to do.
I don’t feel done.
I feel like I’m just starting.
60 years, and the waves keep coming. They always will. Joy and pain, love and loss, all of it rolling in and out like tides. Some will fade. Some I’ll carry until the end.
I don’t know what’s next. I don’t know who I’ll become or what I’ll build or where any of this goes.
But I know I’m not waiting anymore. I AM READY!