07/27/2022
I haven’t posted very much in a while. This contest prep is driving me crazy in a way I haven’t felt in a long time. Been crazy-dysmorphic about how I look, had many setbacks, and just generally it has taken forever to right this ship. But I refuse to give up: this is happening, hell or high water. It’s just that the stress of life in general has had me in such a negative head space that I haven’t enjoyed it.
But I think I’m coming out of that. Maybe I was doing fine all along, or maybe I just now started pulling my s**t together, but whatever the case I’m starting to feel like I might be proud of my work when day of the show(s) arrive in September.
So here I am, 240 and 7 weeks away from the first show. I could be doing better, but I’m not mad at it. Looking forward to the dramatic changes of the next few weeks 🦍💪🏼🦍
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