06/25/2026
1. Spend Sunday dreading Monday so hard my chest gets tight by 3pm.
2. Count everything I did that day before I let myself sit down, like rest had to be earned.
3. Lie awake running through every possible way something could go wrong before I made a single decision.
4. Wake up already behind - first thought of the day, before I even touched my phone.
5. Go to bed with my jaw clenched so tight I’d wake up with headaches.
6. Apologize for needing anything, like my needs were an inconvenience and a burden.
7. Measure my entire worth by what I produced that day.
I didn’t know I was doing it. I thought it was just what it took to keep everything from falling apart.
All of it was a nervous system that had never once been taught what safe felt like.
There is a version of your life that you literally cannot picture right now, and it’s not because it doesn’t exist. It’s because your current baseline has been the frame for so long that you’ve started mistaking it for just who you are.
The Sunday dread, the jaw you clench in your sleep, the way you replay every decision until your brain finally gives up and calls it rest…
You’ve filed all of that under “I’m just an anxious person” or “I’m just a Type A mom” or “this is just what hustle feels like.”
I used to tell myself and people, “ I LOVE to plan.” I even wanted to be a wedding planner because I was “so good at planning.”
When I started to really heal, I realized I hated planning and the only reason I convinced myself I really loved it is bc my BODY never felt safe enough to let someone else take the lead. That looked like, chest crushing anxiety, panic, and wanting to cry.
To me, if I didn’t do it, no one else would so to protect myself from the disappointment of “not being good enough for people to care”, I would take everything on myself (aka bypassing my feelings & my body).
I hate to tell ya, but it’s not just who you are. It’s a pattern you developed that CAN be changed. This is what we do inside The Rebel Mom® Society - every month, in community, with tools that actually land in your body and not just your head.
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