11/09/2023
Physique and life update
215lbs this morning.
Soo I got a gnarly stomach virus and lost 16lbs in less than 2 weeks in the middle of my massing phase š
My appetite has been absolutely crushed. Iām lucky if I can get more than 100g of protein in per day.
I had one single day in the last 2 weeks where I was was feeling good enough to get up past 3000 calories again, but I have been averaging 1,200-2,000 calories per day, and am hungry only 1-2 times per day.
Iāve only been able to get in the gym for two super light upper body sessions since I got sick because my energy is pretty nonexistent.
It has seriously sucked.
Itās hard for me to look in the mirror because Iāve lost so much mass.
Yes I know everyone is going to say āBUT YOU HAVE ABSā.
Imo having sharper abs doesnāt hold a torch to how I was looking before.
On top of all that crap we got sinus infections and had to move to a new apartment while feeling like death lol.
Anyway, the point is there is always going to be unexpected hurdles that come up that are outside of your control.
This is something I have a super hard time accepting at times, most the time lol.
Especially when it negatively affects such a huge part of my identity as a bodybuilder.
I am working on being able to better separate who I actually am as a person from my identity that I show the world, but thatās a whole other long rant for another time lol.
Just wanted to give an update on why Iāve been AWOL