08/21/2023
When I was a little girl, 6, I started having seizures
And, I stopped feeling safe in my body
So, I completely disconnected, disassociated, from my physical self. I couldn’t mentally live there anymore
Years later, I started abusing that body by pushing my limits, physically, all the time
Just to feel
and although I think there is nothing wrong with pushing ourselves! I could sense that I was doing damage
So, one day, at the age of 41, I asked my body what it wanted, needed
I immediately felt an emotional jolt and heard a question. “Wait. You’re asking me? You want to re-connect. You care?”
I cried
Then I heard my body say “Yoga. Start practicing yoga”
I didn’t know where to start, so I decided to try and touch my toes or forward fold. I had to bend my knees, I took a few deep breaths and have been practicing & learning, everyday, ever since
I also haven’t had a seizure for 12 years (that’s another story)
There’s so many layers.
But, for right now, i just want to acknowledge my gratitude for that first forward fold
Anywho, that’s just a little bit of my yoga journey. How did you start?