09/29/2021
Why do some people always leave a mess behind?
I saw a butterfly this morning. It was mostly orange with black markings. You know the one I mean. We’ve all seen them.
It was just an instance, a fleeting moment. I was looking out the third floor window of the hospital I was stuck in and it flitted by – up, down a little flutter.
It didn’t fly across the window. It just appeared and disappeared. I wanted more but it was gone. Don’t know where it went. Don’t know where it was headed.
It left no trace behind.
It made me happy, lifted my spirits. The day was only a few hours old and I was watching the dark lift with the sky just starting to brighten.
Seeing the butterfly made me feel better. That’s all. No big revelation, no earth shattering truth revealed. It was just a flash of color, there, then gone.
I wonder why some people always leave a mess behind when they fly by?
I’ve had three roommates during my hospital stay of three nights.
Chris is a firefighter who made the decision to stop treating his aggressive cancer and die with dignity and peace.
I was on the other side of the curtain when he told his wife and three daughters. I tried to be as quiet as I could.
There was a lot of crying but mostly expressions of love and support and maybe peace, relief.
He’s not an educated guy, just the High School diploma and 30 plus years on the job. Loves his work, loves his wife and kids. No mess left behind.
Chris left for hospice Sunday.
David showed up Sunday night, naked, loud, and uncooperative. He turned the TV on full volume. The CNA was cool and stuck some headphones on him.
After his nap there was a problem with the meds. There was a gap with what he wanted and what the hospital staff was willing to provide.
He lost his mind, crashed around and made a big deal of leaving if they wouldn’t get what he wanted. Lots of drama and noise, called his dad to come and get him, tries to rip out his IV, starts bleeding all over the place.
Meanwhile the docs are trying to figure out the problem with the meds, which they do right in the middle of the drama fest. He gets his drugs sends his dad back home, plays the TV loud and makes a mess.
David signed himself out in the morning. It took the staff over an hour to clean up after him.
Around 2 pm another guy shows up straight from surgery.
It’s a big production getting him off the transport and into the bed. He’s an older guy, in pain, worried, confused and falls right asleep. He snores like a true pro.
But he’s nice to the nurses, apologetic, doesn’t want to be a bother, probably not a mess, just noisy.
Some people go through life and leave a mess behind.
They don’t care that they left a mess. They don’t care about the disruption in the flow they cause and its residual effects long after they passed through. They don’t care about the people that love them and have to clean up their mess.
They don’t understand how to be a butterfly. A butterfly never leaves a mess – ever.
I think we should clean up our mess as we go so we don’t forget how to be a butterfly.