06/05/2026
For seven years, I thought I was losing my mind.
What started as one terrifying moment on a hiking trail turned into years of intrusive thoughts, panic attacks, anxiety, depression, and fear that I couldn't explain.
The hardest part?
I didn't want to die.
I wasn't suicidal.
But my brain kept showing me vivid images that terrified me, and I was too afraid to tell anyone what I was experiencing.
I thought people would think I was crazy.
I thought they would think I was a danger to myself.
So I suffered in silence.
What I didn't know at the time was that hormonal changes during perimenopause can affect mental health in ways that many women are never warned about.
This is the first reel in a series sharing my experience with perimenopause, mental health, and what happened when I finally found a provider who listened.
While my journey is still ongoing, finding the right provider has been life-changing. Sarah Stinebaugh listened when others didn't. She looked at the whole picture and helped me start finding my way back to myself. I am incredibly grateful for her care.
If you're looking for evidence-based education and resources about perimenopause and menopause, I also highly recommend following Dr. Mary Claire Haver, Dr. Louise Newson, and Dr. Kelly Casperson. Their work has helped countless women better understand what's happening to their bodies and advocate for their health.
If you've ever experienced symptoms that made you feel like you didn't recognize yourself anymore, you're not alone.
I'd love to hear your story in the comments.
⚠️ My experience is my own and is not medical advice. If you are experiencing thoughts of self-harm, suicidal thoughts, or are in crisis, please seek immediate support from a qualified healthcare professional, crisis line, or emergency services.
I am sharing my lived experience. Hormonal changes were one piece of my story, but intrusive thoughts and mental health symptoms can have many causes.