09/30/2018
Our beloved and respected Sensei, Shihan, and Soke--Rudy Crosswell--passed away peacefully, at home and surrounded by family, on September 25, 2018.
Allow me to start by apologizing for the piecemeal way in which information of his passing got out, particularly on Facebook. This was the result of unintended leaks, and I can only try to make it right from where we stand.
Many of you did not even know (or were not sure) that he was ill, and for that I extend my heartfelt apologies. A proud warrior until the very end, his wishes were that almost nobody be informed of his condition, and it was the duty of his inner circle to respect them.
That said, I hope people will take comfort in the fact that for Soke and those closest to him, this was not a sudden passing--and he had lots of time (though never enough) to fully enjoy life--to travel, to teach, to be with family and friends, and to do everything that he truly loved and wanted to do in the two years that he lived, nearly without symptoms, after his very serious diagnosis. He fought until the last, pushed himself to get to the dojo just days before leaving us, and will forever be an example of fortitude, courage, and strength to us all.
As his wife, closest confidant, dedicated student, and co-keeper of his legacy, let me assure you that the Arizona Budokan and the dojo family will go on, heartbroken and feeling our way through the dark a bit at first, but ultimately tighter, stronger, and more fiercely committed to his teachings than ever. Like the man who dedicated his life to it, the Arizona Budokan is unlike any other. It is a sacred place for those who have made it a part of their lives, and it must be preserved for our own sakes as well as for that of future generations.
Many of you will ask what you can do, and the answer is simple: Train. Train with heart, train with passion, train with fortitude, and train with dedication. If there is any quality that you admired in Soke (and I'm sure there are many), do everything you can to embody and develop it in order to honor his legacy and the inspiration he brought to your life. Here at AZB, I and the other instructors are even more galvanized than ever to ensure a vibrant and bright future for our tribe. I hope you will see him forever shining bright through our ongoing evolution as a center and a sanctuary for authentic martial arts traditions.
Whether you knew Soke as a lifelong friend or passing face, I thank you on his behalf for the kindness and respect that you showed him during his lifetime. He was a complex man, but there was not a soul on earth who questioned his dedication to his art and his life’s purpose. He has now taken his rightful place among the great departed masters, and those of us he has left behind as keepers of his legacy are honored to follow humbly in his footsteps.
With love and in budo,
Dawn