09/23/2019
Finding my “better”
Life as an athlete is measurable. It’s objective. Easy to see where you’ve made progress and easy to see where you want to go to move forward.
Athletes also always chase their “better”. No matter the achievement, there is always more.
Life can be a bit more challenging. No judges or timers or weight on the bar to tell you how you’re doing or to see the progress you’ve made.
I have found that after retirement from high level athletics, this can sometimes lead to feeling a bit unsettled. How do you know what’s “good enough” or what’s “better”? Obviously it’s individual, and constantly evolving.
I’m always working to find my “better” in life. I’m always asking myself how can I be more, do more, help more?
Realizing that no matter what, I’ll always be a work in progress. There’s always a “better”. And I’ll always be striving to find it. And more importantly, it doesn’t mean I’m not “enough” right now.
WE ARE ALL ENOUGH—RIGHT NOW!
And I’m working on understanding that if I’ve made a wrong turn, it can simply be a learning experience. And it’s part of the journey. Part of my story.
The joy in this is that experience and time have taught me to truly enjoy the process and the journey. ALL OF IT- including my double achilles repair this year.
I’m certainly not perfect and I sometimes let it get me frustrated and unsettled, but I also know I’m in good company. And try to remind myself why I feel the way I do.
I think most people who are driven for more in any capacity experience similar feelings. And it’s part of what leads to incredible experiences and takes you amazing places.
Not always an easy road, but I wouldn’t change it! Staying true to myself.