09/16/2022
“Im not going to be like my mom with my kids”
Before I continue, some will agree that we wouldn’t have made it without our mothers. My mom is one of my best friends. I love her and so thankful for everything she has done for me.
BUT…
I have some vivd experiences that I refuse to pass on with my girls.
Recently, I became aware that my mom raised me the best way she “knew”. I NEVER tried to understand, let alone ask her if she was “ok”.
NOW, I get it. She was living in survival mode. She couldn’t take the time to step back and think about HERSELF. She was constantly on the go, go, go and I just had to follow, or do as I was told.
If she couldn’t calm herself, take a step back and truly analyze why she was always in a rush, why she was always upset when things didn’t go her way. How was she supposed to guide me through my own tantrums, or confusions?
My mom raised 4 girls on her own. She did what she had to do. Now that we’re older, she has more “me time”. She takes times to do things that fill her cup. She’s has become aware of thoughts that make her upset, she knows exactly what triggers her body to feel pain or discomfort. My mom has shown me to take care of myself so I can be the mom that can listen to my daughters feelings, be patient, be understanding, slow down and enjoy the little moments, and to live in the presence. Most importantly to shorten the time it took her to realize it.
Gracies Ma.