12/28/2022
It’s wild to think about how much has changed in me and in my life between these two pictures.
The first picture on the left is in the middle of 2020. I was the cardio queen. Exercising 6-7x a week, trying to get as thin as I possibly could in order to find some sort of validation that my body was good enough. Eating in a major deficit and basically eating minimal carbs while tracking my every calorie. Only allowing myself 1 cheat meal a week. I was thin, but I still wasn’t satisfied.
Then we head to the picture on the right that I took on a whim this morning. Just came out of eating whatever I wanted and not tracking during Christmas. Yes I’m in a “cut”. I’m 15lbs heavier than the first photo, I’ve got a dumpy 🤪🍑, I allow myself the freedom to eat what I want, but considering how I feel and making sure I get enough protein. I’m stronger than I’ve ever been. I’m happier than I’ve been with myself. And I’m more confident than I have ever been in my life. I currently work out anywhere from 3-5x a week depending on where my life and stress are at, but I adjust my workouts according to how I feel.
Things are so so good.
The difference?
Mindset.
2020 mindset: Get as thin as possible so people will like me and affirm me with my body image issues.
2022 mindset: There is more to life than my body. Let me get as strong as possible and lift more than the boyz. Don’t be afraid to take up space or fill out your jeans. Your worth is not defined by how you look.
And you know what’s wild? I’ve always had an issue with being hyper focused on my midsection, and yet in these two pictures, my midsection is about the same size even though I’m now 15lbs heavier 🤔 Food for thought next time you’re afraid of not losing the amount that you want.