09/02/2026
Mr. October- Reggie Jackson—-Three home runs on three pitches in Game Six to clinch the World Series for the New York Yankees.
Lawrence Taylor—the undisputed greatest defensive player in NFL history—leads the New York Giants to win their first Super Bowl.
The USA hockey team shocks the world, beating the Soviet Union in the “Miracle on Ice” at the Olympics.
I was just a kid.
These were my heroes.
And I can picture it all like it was yesterday
Greatness. Supernatural capabilities. Owning the moment.
These were the aspirations that drove me.
As an early teenager, after my first class with my new Sensei—an advanced black belt in karate—I began to see that through his training, I might be able to discover true greatness within myself.
The power.
The precision.
The perfection of technique.
He had it.
And I wanted it.
And, to tell you the truth, after years of training, I got pretty damn good.
But it became clear to me that taking it to the top of that mountain would require a sacrifice I simply wasn’t willing to make—even if I could.
But something much bigger happened to me during my training.
At the time, I would have called it Chi.
When I entered a state of real flow, all kinds of amazing things would happen.
People could feel what they described as a field of energy coming from my hands from across the room.
And as crazy as this might sound, I once burned a friend with my hands from six inches away—so much so that he developed a six-inch red blister on his chest.
I had to know WTF this was.
But the physical experience wasn't even the most important part.
Several times during training, the perfect kick or punch would simply flow.
And for brief moments, I experienced the most remarkable state of inner peace.
A mystical moment.
It was what Aikido described as a way of harmony—something I could feel everywhere.
It was as if I had surrendered to a force beyond myself.
John disappeared.
And what remained was something I could only describe as the deepest, most profound love.
Sometimes it would hit me out of nowhere.
Like in the middle of the night, I’d wake up in tears.
I’d grab my pen and a journal, and the most miraculous poem—an insight into myself, others, or the universe—would purge onto the page.
Understanding this became life's quest.
I’d already learned to kill with my hands.
Now I set out on a path to chiropractic school—to master healing with them.
And I wanted in, yesterday.
I attended two colleges simultaneously, both full-time, and completed a three-year pre-med program in a year and a half.
In chiropractic school, I continued my martial arts training, now with a focus on healing.
I studied Hatha Yoga and learned Raja Yoga from a monk from India.
By day, I walked around campus with a Walkman, listening to Tony Robbins cassettes.
By night, I meditated on Taoist mantras.
And I couldn’t help but notice a key distinction in what I was hearing.
The power of positive thinking—the adrenaline rush—on one side.
And yin and yang, balanced thinking, inner harmony, on the other.
The allure of personal power was undeniable.
But it was the equanimity of inner peace that moved my spirit.
Then one day, at a seminar on campus, in walks this ultra-skinny dude in an Italian suit—the keynote speaker, Dr. John Demartini.
I figured, here we go again—another pump-up chiropractic business rally.
But within minutes, John was explaining calculus—and somehow, for the first time, I understood it.
Apparently, Leibniz and Newton were both searching for God—approaching the mystery from opposite directions.
Leibniz was trying to break space and time down to the infinitely small, while Newton was measuring the infinitely large.
And as John kept speaking, he laser-targeted his message toward a single concept:
Equilibrium.
More than a hundred examples.
In the stillness of the sea between high and low tide.
In the calm at the center of every storm.
In the rebalancing of every chemical equation.
But when John threaded the conversation toward the human brain, that’s when I knew.
Positive thoughts and pleasurable emotions, balancing negative thoughts and displeasurable emotions.
Brainwaves, of course—half quantum experiences, with each side creating the other.
Repetitive cycles create repetitive results in our lives.
At one level, that is.
However, at another level, beyond the highs and lows of our own emotions and thoughts, beyond the stormy seas, a calm stillness—a field of equilibrium—awaits us.
Equilibrium.
The state of inner peace and flow, where inspiration and genius are revealed.
And ultimately, the key to accessing it is held within our own thinking.
Freedom of thought.
It might be the only freedom left.
We had the power to balance our own thinking.
And it turns out, we may have far more influence over depression, anxiety, grief—and even the physical symptoms and health consequences that can accompany them—than we ever imagined.
I decided to master the pursuit of this understanding—and make it my life’s work.
I studied equilibrium in the world’s philosophies, sciences, and religions.
I helped people rediscover equilibrium through trauma, remorse, and regret.
And at the most profound level, I practiced finding equilibrium within myself.
For almost a decade, it worked—miraculously, sometimes.
Until the most difficult day of my life.
The day my mom passed away at age 56, I wanted to join her.
She was the closest person in the world to me.
She challenged me to be my very best.
My guardian angel.
I tortured myself for a week that felt like a century.
Why didn’t I do more to help her?
Why didn’t I see it coming?
What could I have done differently?
Every coulda, woulda, shoulda you can imagine.
Until, in a moment, my inner guide cut through the turmoil.
That deep sense of knowing reminded me of something essential.
I had spent a decade studying the concept of an underlying equilibrium that exists in all things.
And I thought:
Death does not murder equilibrium.
Or does it?
Either I would find equilibrium in my mother’s death—or everything I had been advocating was a lie.
A friend lent me an empty mansion in South Florida.
I isolated myself and turned inward.
With pen and paper, I listed every challenge I felt around my mom’s passing.
There were many.
Then, as painfully as possible, I began writing how each of those challenges might serve me.
I listed my mom’s characteristics—her nurturing, her humor, her empathy, her unconditional love.
According to the first law of thermodynamics, energy and matter are neither created nor destroyed, only transformed.
If that was true—and I believed it was—then those qualities had to exist somewhere else.
But how?
And where?
Each time I searched for transformation, my heart panicked.
I wanted to cling to the grieving little boy inside me.
The hardest part was losing her support.
Where was unconditional love now?
Who would mother me?
Eventually, one truth surfaced:
I would have to trust my own judgment.
The tug-of-war inside me threatened to pull me into a bottomless pit.
Life had thrown me its ultimate crossroads.
Then, one day, something shifted.
I felt lighter—as if something had let go.
I felt okay.
Peaceful.
That evening, I went out to dinner with my girlfriend, who had flown in that day.
As we walked through the parking lot, a woman caught my attention.
She had a cigarette in one hand and a cup of coffee in the other—just like Mom.
Our eyes met.
“Hello,” she said, smiling.
I introduced myself and asked her name.
“Lorraine.”
My mother's name.
I asked where she was from.
“Brooklyn.”
That's where my mom was from.
Suspicious, I asked her age.
Fifty-six.
And then something happened that I still struggle to explain.
There was no sense of separation anymore—not between me and this woman, not between me and anything.
It felt as though everything was connected by a single beam of light.
I whispered to my girlfriend:
“I guarantee her birthday is January ninth.”
I asked the woman when her birthday was.
She stared deeply into my eyes and said:
“January 9th.”
Before I could respond, a car pulled up.
Lorraine got in and drove away.
What are the chances of meeting another fifty-six-year-old Lorraine from Brooklyn, with the same birthday as the day my mother died?
More importantly:
How did I know?
My girlfriend saw it all.
This wasn't imagination.
It happened.
Still my guardian angel, my mom's passing left me with insights deeper than I could have ever imagined.
It's one thing to understand intellectually that time is relative and energy is conserved.
Life and death are one.
It's another thing to know it in your bones.
There is no doubt that my ability to search for balance—rather than completely collapse into chaos—is what carried me through.
And that experience compelled me to write my story:
THANK GOD MY MOM DIED
The experience was cathartic.
I shared my story with a client who had been physically abused.
Through months of inner work, she was able to see how the abuse that had once haunted her had also helped her become brave, strong, and even inspired her to begin martial arts classes.
Then she asked me if I thought it was a good idea to write her own “Thank God I Was Abused” story.
At that moment, it hit me.
Divorce.
Depression.
Grief.
Cancer.
Addiction.
Abuse.
There must be thousands—maybe millions—of people carrying stories just like mine.
I had discovered through my mother’s death that I could help others find their own Thank God I experience.
And that’s how ThankGodi Stories began.
Before I knew it, we had a ton of submissions—hundreds of stories with the potential to help countless people.
So we decided to publish them.
And our first ThankGodi compilation book was born.
But organizing dozens of authors, submissions, formatting, editing, branding, sales, marketing, and distribution felt like complete chaos.
Then came the moment that made it all worthwhile.
We surpassed Joel Osteen’s book and hit #1 on Amazon.
What a rush.
We went on to publish a second book.
Then a third.
Then a fourth.
We translated one book into Spanish and sold the rights to another in India.
We were featured on ABC Television, in the Hollywood feature film Discover the Gift, and in The Huffington Post.
We were endorsed by both creators of the Chicken Soup for the Soul series and by multiple New York Times bestselling authors.
We held bookstore signings all over the country.
ThankGodi titles remain in publication.
However, with the changes in the print and digital book industry, I took a hiatus from publishing.
Until recently.
With the advent of AI, the possibilities became endless.
That was B.C.—Before the COVID pandemic.
The day my tech partner in Dubai sent me a video of Chinese officials in hazmat suits, along with news of a new virus outbreak, I told him:
“They released a bioweapon. It will crash the U.S. economy, influence the election, and get ready for a bioweapon injection that will kill or maim millions.”
In the days that followed, everything changed for me.
It became clear to me: part of our government was complicit in a blatant attack on the American people and the world.
The evidence of malfeasance and cover-up was not just overwhelming—it was everywhere.
The PCR test missettings.
The mask fiasco.
False fatality stats.
Ivermectin and hydroxychloroquine lies.
Remdesivir.
The vaccine animal-study results.
Vaccine requirements for federal workers while Congress and illegals crossing the border were exempt.
Guaranteed the bioweapon shot stopped transmission, only to later admit transmission was never tested for.
Etc.
A blind bat could have seen it.
Yet so many educated, intelligent, credentialed, super-successful people were clueless.
It was genocide—the launch of World War III.
And suddenly I had a whole new challenge.
I had anger that anyone could do this.
Rage and betrayal against the machine that made it so.
Frustration that people couldn’t see it.
Fear of what came next.
A smorgasbord of emotions to bring back into equilibrium.
So I did what I had spent decades learning to do.
I meditated.
I prayed.
One by one, I settled each of my emotions.
And then, in a flash, it hit me.
I conscripted myself to serve in a war I knew would go on for decades.
But what role would I play?
And I truly questioned:
What difference could one person possibly make?
First things first.
Fear and confusion were the primary weapons.
And thirty-five years of studying equilibrium suddenly made absolute sense.
I didn’t buy any of the lies the media, politicians, and health authorities were telling.
I didn’t put my trust in the inconsistencies the so-called medical experts and authorities were feeding us.
The state of inner equilibrium filtered it all.
And suddenly, the greatness of the superheroes that had inspired me as a kid—the greatness I had always sought—took on an entirely different meaning.
It wasn't about possessing extraordinary physical power.
It was about leading my days and nights by bringing equilibrated thinking to the next generation.
To develop future leaders.
Because equilibrated thinking means looking beyond the allure of one-sided power and greed.
Global genocide is off the table.
In equilibrium, we move beyond the self—to the self and others.
Us versus them becomes with them.
It felt both momentous and humbling.
I realized, quite honestly, that the path of humanity might hinge upon it.
Then I caught wind of several world-renowned medical doctors who, as the bioweapon vax data came in, began questioning the authorities.
These brave souls were being censored on social media and having their licenses threatened simply for telling the truth.
These were my kinda people.
I flew around the country, attended their events, and befriended the doctors leading the charge.
It was as if, finally, a blindfold had been lifted.
These docs realized they had been lied to for a long time.
They were wide open to listen and learn.
I explained equilibrium and served on the BOD of TheBody Healthcare alongside neurosurgeon Dr. Avery Jackson and world-renowned cardiologist Dr. Peter McCullough.
I ended up partnering with two amazing doctors to invent a product designed to help people restore their health.
But the deeper I went, the more unexpected the journey became.
As I dug deeper down the rabbit hole, I came across the unimaginable—the impossible to believe.
They were controlling the weather, conducting weather warfare, and they’d been escalating it since the 1960s!
“GTF out of here. This can’t be true.”
Well, after discovering the dozens of weather-modification patents, reading about Operation Popeye, Operation Stormfury, and Operation Cumulus employing the use of weather warfare, the EMOD treaties banning it, the hundreds of lab tests confirming metal nanoparticles, a video of President Lyndon Johnson in 1962 stating, “We will control the world’s cloud layer, and he who controls the weather will control the world,” and simply looking up every day, it became clear:
We’re breathing millions of tons of toxic metals.
Another attack vector.
As they were obliterating the equilibrium in our skies with the weather, I had some strong emotions to equilibrate myself.
The bioweapon shot was one thing.
Try not breathing while these pricks build underground bunkers for themselves.
Are there filtration and chelation technologies that the people don’t know about?
And as I continued my enlistment against the current global genocide, I was blessed to align with the world-leading expert Dane Wigington and learned more than I really wanted to know.
I befriended congressmen proposing bills to get geoengineering banned.
Tennessee and Florida have done so, yet the spraying continues.
I was tasked with visiting all 535 Congressional offices to discuss the topic.
After visiting more than 200 offices, I was surprised to discover that most of the staffers knew nothing—or very little—about it.
Apparently, I was the only person they had ever seen come through their doors to discuss it!
Today, I keynote for MAHA and discuss the topic of geoengineering on college campuses.
And now that Elon Musk has stated—on August 30, 2026, publicly on X:
“Space satellites to control temperature and massive geo-engineering will be needed or it will be game over.”
I look forward to asking Mr. Musk:
What does he know about the geoengineering currently going on in our skies?
How well has it worked thus far?
And what effects is it having on our health?
But my search wasn't finished.
As I continued my anti-genocidal efforts, I came across another fellow patriot, neurosurgeon Dr. Jack Kruse, discussing the SV40 promoter that was found in the COVID bioweapon shots.
And when Dr. Kruse discussed the book The Body Electric by Robert O. Becker, which put him on the path to understanding how light, water, and magnetism ran the human body, my jaw dropped.
It was the same book my martial arts instructor had handed me when I was 23.
Jack discussed the leptin–melanocortin pathway.
He measured the absorption and emission wavelength spectra of different cells in the body.
Melanin acts as a semiconductor, stimulating mitochondrial biophotons.
That was it.
Biophysics trumps biochemistry in running the human body.
OMG.
Thirty-five years.
The science of Chi.
I finally understood what had set me on my path to equilibrium in the first place:
How I burned my friend’s chest with my hands.
As they say, everything comes full circle.
And suddenly, I could see the beginning again.
At five years old, there was an eight-year-old bully on the block who would beat the crap out of me.
I had no idea then where that experience would lead.
And I owe him a ThankGodi story in our relaunch of one million ThankGodi stories, with the goal of reaching one billion people.
Because it was this bully who led me to the martial arts.
And it was the martial arts that led me to the path of equilibrium—the path of equanimity that I believe, at the deepest levels, guides us all.
Today, we face what I believe is the greatest battle in human history.
A group of genocidal lunatics who have infiltrated world governments have made it very clear:
The people who control the weather intend to control it all.
And I mean everything.
Your money.
Your body.
Your brain.
Your children.
I’m conscripted to bring the tool of equilibrium to every person on this planet who wants it.
Because I know that from this mental state, the very best of a person can emerge.
They find their higher self.
They find the strength, courage, and purpose to overcome their fixation on the outside and live from the guidance within.
And that guidance is the field of love—the place beyond what any human being can accomplish alone.
I believe that, given the technology we currently possess, if humanity is to avoid extinguishing itself, the leaders of tomorrow will be people rooted in this understanding.
And I believe that anyone reading this right now has that capability within themselves.
Will it be easy?
Hell no.
Battling the war within ourselves—and the war in the world—may be the most difficult path of all.
But will it be worth it?
I believe that living out greatness is the only option.
And given the alternatives,
you’ll have to decide that for yourself.
--
John Castagnini
CEO
ThankGodi.com
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