04/20/2022
For the last monthish, I “shut off,” to conserve as much energy as possible to get through a competitive season that lasted barely longer than 170 hours.
My first competition was April 2, and I finished April 9.
After two years of no competitions, and three years of not around thousands of other NAIGCers, I wanted to put my all into my competitions at MIT and Milwaukee.
I started turning off mental switches wherever possible to make sure that happened.
Work, even practice… I just wasn’t at my best there (ironic about practice) to ensure those two moments went well.
I succeeded. But now that’s done. I have to wake up to reality.
Back to a full work schedule. Back to doing behind the scenes work. Returning to training 24 hours weekly.
Wheels are turning again in my life, seemingly faster than I can keep up with them.
I’m so overwhelmed. It’s agonizing to have all these switches active when I wasn’t touching them for a month. I keep reminding myself, “it’s ok, it’s ok, it’s ok…” I know I can still win the week.
I’ve started using a planner to ensure I focus on what’s most important.
Still taking things slow enough that I have time to acclimate.
Everything I’m doing now isn’t “new;” I just grew out of habit.
I know why I did what I did; it’s still time to move with the turning wheels. It’s possible to move with them while still not going from zero to 100.
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