10/07/2020
September was a hard month.
And it wasnāt admitted aloud by me. Although many of you have checked in and itās much appreciated. I know 2020 has been a difficult year so far for so many of us. But Iāve been struggling to keep it altogether. so many things demanded immediate attention and I lost my routine. I hate to admit that I have been struggling. I have always held everything in and showed out as ābeing strongā or āhaving everything in orderā.
Vulnerability is hard to accept. Even harder to put out into the world. But honestly? There is SO much behind the scenes that are fighting for full attention that I struggled to keep a purpose, to stay on track. PTSD and anxiety eventually knock me down. I refuse to just show a highlight reel, so hereās me being real with you all.
Does this make me weak? No. Does it mean I cant get back on track? Absolutely not!
Hereās what it does mean:
1. I had to take time to figure out the path back
2. Life throws curveballs and itās important to swing at the right ones
3. PTSD SUCKS!
4. My children and family will ALWAYS come first.
5. I NEED my workouts in more ways than just āto lose weightā
6. October is going to be a game changer!
The rest of 2020 will be in my control. With it will bring strength- both physically and mentally, perseverance, vulnerability, and grace. My emotional health is something that I have to take time for when life starts spinning. And I KNOW Iām not the only one.
Once you lose your focus, you lose the ability to push through hard situations. The challenge is always to keep going!
What is your driving force to keep going?