03/30/2019
Coming from a background of having a serious eating disorder most of my teenage and adult life, I still struggle some days with an initial negative thought when I try something on or look in the mirror. That’s OK, it’s still night and day from where my mind once was. But to feel strong and confident because of all the hard workout I put in everyday, ya can’t buy this or take it away from me ☺️🥳
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Left, eating around 2200 cals with usual splurges twice a week. Had my regular programming with each week but then would jump in on unprogrammed stuff here and there. Which ultimately did impact my recovery and gains over time, because I wasn’t eating enough. I was sleeping a lot though and learning how to really navigate progress while pursing coaching full time and becoming a better athlete. But gains were ssllooww.
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Right, been bulking for five months. Almost up 20lbs. I am lazy at tracking calories on the app. But it’s allowed me to enjoy my life more 😝 I’m eating for PERFORMANCE. No less then 2500 cals a day maybe more. Doing WAY less CrossFit, as in no metcon or having sessions where I’m dripping in sweat or torn hands. If it’s conditioning I’m breathing through my nose to keep my heart rate low. We want gains baby. I also went back to school during this time. Most of my days begin at 4 or 5AM, now I’m lucky if I nap between coaching, clients and school. But this is adulting. May not have the sexy ab lines anymore, but who really gives af. I sacrificed my abs for stronger arms and legs. It’s all apart of the process. I was so stuck to doing things one way for awhile, but had a realization that the process “of becoming” is seasonal like anything else. I move way better and feel way better. Now if I do a Crossfit workout I actually move almost just as fast if not faster because I am stronger. Also, I am so close to a 200 # back squat when I thought this was at least another year away. Squatting has always been my weakness. F yes, can’t wait for more solid strength in my future training.
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✨ Moral of the story, trust the process, step back and try things differently. The stars don’t have to perfectly align to see progress. ✨
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