09/03/2026
January 2026, I made a move that felt unprecedented to me: I stopped prioritizing making money.
For 30 years, I’ve been either a six-figure earner or a seven-figure business owner. That’s a long time to have your identity wrapped around a number. It’s also major pressure on your nervous system and body.
Somewhere along the way, it turned into a messed up catch-22. The numbers had to keep getting bigger just for me to *feel* anything. The hit. The surge. I was sourcing my value worth externally and calling it ambition.
From the outside, it looked like success. Inside, I felt empty and disconnected from myself. Success never lasted or felt like success… I was in this cycle of hitting milestones where I’d feel satisfied by for minutes, sometimes hours, before I was already reaching for the next one.
The even worse part is all the praise and admiration I got from others made me feel guilty, ungrateful, and even isolated. I wondered why I just couldn’t be content and happy. Why did peace and ease always seem like a moving target?
For the last two years, I’ve been in a deep reclamation process. It’s about not outsourcing worth. No more racing to check off the next goal just to chase that fleeting hit of satisfaction.
It’s the process of alchemy, really. Taking something ordinary and turning it into gold. It’s going from “hustle to herself”. The process of being a woman for whom success never quite felt like success, to one where even the ordinary moments start to feel like gold.
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