10/16/2026
[Retuning]
I used to be a master of to-do lists.
Get things done. Check. Check. Check. Good job.
I read a lot about efficiency and productivity. Looking back, I think it was partly because I struggled with so many things that seemed easy for others when I was growing up.
Getting things done became a way to reassure myself. If I put in the effort, I could get results. And if I got results, I could feel good about myself.
Then, something unexpected happened in Aikido.
During training, I did a technique that made my partner fall to the floor.
But I felt nothing.
No sense of accomplishment. No “I did it!” No satisfaction from having made something happen.
It was as if I hadn’t done anything at all.
And yet, my partner was on the floor.
It was a completely unfamiliar feeling.
Where was my checklist? Where was the effort I could point to? Where was the satisfaction of knowing I had done a good job?
I had achieved the result, but I couldn’t take credit for it in the way I was used to.
It made me wonder how much of my life I had spent focusing on outcomes, measuring my efforts by what I could accomplish.
And then I began to see a similar thread in PRI.
Retuning.
Retuning the relationship between reference and referent. Learning to connect. Finding the timing. Feeling the rhythm.
To pay attention to what’s happening right now, rather than constantly measuring where I am against where I want to be.
To feel, to notice, to re-connect.
To be present in the moment instead of rushing ahead to the result.
Maybe the question isn’t always, How do I make this happen?
Maybe it’s also, What am I experiencing right now? What am I responding to? Am I connected? Am I in tune with the moment?
Perhaps I’ve been so focused on checking things off that I’ve forgotten to listen.
Aikido gave me a glimpse of that.
PRI helps me explore it further.
It’s about becoming more present to myself, to others, and to what’s happening right now. #ズレ