03/12/2021
Somehow my exercise discipline has been lost for sometime and without it I have felt very unsure.
I haven’t shared this with many of you as I have been a in a role of a leader in this respect to many of my clients who I still work with but I do think it’s worth sharing as it has been a wonderful reminder and lesson in self compassion, kindness and encouragement.
I have been exercising my whole adult life, only once (that was a life changing circumstance) losing discipline and or commitment for more than a few weeks.
This is the 2nd time that I can remember that I have felt lost, floundering, aimless, inspired-less, teamless. I have been looking for the answers to this. All I can say is that- the life move, change of location, missing friends, loss of routine, shutting down my blessed training studio that came with people that are more than clients who transformed their lives but who became friends, the steady grounding amazing income that came from doing what I love, craving my old sanctuary of a home, not seeing my darling mum and dad on the daily, being in a place that winter is real and is literally 20• colder than I am use to - has all been brutal on my body, heart and mind.
It’s a true test to everything I have always taught and walked.
I am glad for it all, because through the heaviness and upside downwardness of Covid upon the world creating so much doubt, worry and fear cannot ever be bigger than my connection with knowing everything happens for a reason, trusting in a higher plan and knowing my higher power is leading me towards being exactly where I am meant to be.
I see all the answers I was looking, the lesson; looking outside is wasting time and all the answers have and are and always have been inward along long.
Pull the door open inward not pushing outward. From the core to the extremities always.... Today I found a beacon in the darkness... ✨
I am so very grateful for it all.