07/24/2023
It’s been a bit since I’ve been on here. I thought I’d do an accountability check in. I had a breath bad week w my nutrition again. It’s so hard to stay on plan when there’s no Meal prep! I’m very lazy when I have time at home to cook my meals I’m supposed to eat so most of the time I’m grabbing something out. Definitely if I have a long day of training. But ya see that’s always the beginning of my emotional spiral!! I will start to eat out more frequently, not all ways choose the healthiest options, not eating enough food and end up splurging more then I should. Last week I ended up in my own pity pool. With no one to blame but myself I felt like I was drowning! I questioned my every reason for continuing eating this way, if I actually wanted to do a show, or if I was even capable of cutting my fat to do a show!! A show is not everyone’s goals but the struggles are all the same! I allowed myself to have a pity party for one then had to snap myself out of it. I meal planned for the week and am getting myself back on track! It really is a continuous struggle for me. One thing a dear friend said to me was to find the wins within the failures! Even within all the failures this past week, I didn’t revert back to my old habits and ways. I still kept it fairly decent. My old self would have fallen completely off and eaten anything in sight. I didn’t do that. Because of that I am proud of myself! Find the wins in your failures! Don’t give up! Keep showing up!!
