10/22/2019
Hello, late-nighters βπ½
So, an update: As you all know (all 7+ billion of you) I decided to scrap the "100 workout" program I was doing. I was losing interest π€·π½ββοΈ and the disinterest was going on for two weeks straight, with 27 workouts left. And the disinterest had rapidly leaked into my nutrition. And as we all know, ya girl fluctuates like whoaaaa! It was a personal recipe for disaster. As of today, I am 7lbs over my "heaviest weight" ever. I am hopeful, however, in my decision to reign in my nutrition, add in weight lifting and slowwwwwly introduce balance back in my diet.
Fam, if you're not enjoying your workout regimen, you're not doing the right thing for you. Don't let people bully you into thinking that's a fail or cop out, either. You're not "giving up" when you switch gears to better match your interests in a form of recreation.
I took this picture this past weekend before heading out to a fab brunch with my ladies (bottomless mimosas, ayoooo!). I was so frustrated because none of my clothes fit. I ended up squeezing myself into a no-stretch romper. I wore SO much make-up because I was feeling super insecure. I cried later that night and the next day because I felt so unattractive. That's....s**tty.
No, size doesn't matter. But my rapid increase in my own size was causing me to spiral out, and I began to seriously question everything I'm doing in life. But after some solid self pity, I recognized my first step towards sanity:
I actually do have control over this lovely, capable body. I have proved it several times before. I am excellent at pushing my limits and showing great feats of nutritional discipline when I choose to π£ WHEN I CHOOSE TO
It is a choice. A fuggin hardddd choice, but a choice nonetheless. Yesterday, I meal prepped. Today, I packed all my food for work. Tonight, I did a hardcore 45 minute workout.
Things are looking good today. I am confident in my comeback ππΎ And, hell, I'm gonna say it, I like this picture of me π€
While we're kind of on the topic, what's your favorite workout style??