12/18/2019
"Swimming was my first love. It was in the pool that I—a nerdy middle schooler—felt strong, where I could see hours of work turn into muscles. I swam through college but competed in off-season Triathlon to stay fit. I switched to cycling in 2005 when I started grad school. Despite being diagnosed with Crohn’s disease in 2006, I raced seriously until 2010.
I pretended that the disease—an autoimmune condition that attacks the digestive system—didn’t exist and pushed myself hard. By 2010, I was so sick that no treatments helped. Out of options, I agreed to have my large intestine removed in 3 surgeries that would remove the entire organ and reconfigure the small intestine. They were vicious, painful surgeries that required an ostomy, but, by 2013, I was well enough to consider competing again.
I tried my first criterium that summer, but I finished the race in tears. My body—always so strong, capable, tough—felt unbelievably fragile, and I was terrified of crashing. When I took my kit off that day, I knew I’d never be back. BUT, I tried a small local Triathlon later that fall. I didn’t feel fear – just relief at being a real athlete again. Since then, I’ve had progressively more competitive Triathlon seasons and raced in the USA Age Group National Championships last year. I have a long-term goal of representing Team USA at Worlds someday (hopefully soon!).
Being an athlete with a disability is not easy, especially when that disability is invisible. I struggle with dehydration, vitamin/mineral deficiencies, and intestinal blockages. Some days, my body is my best friend, and I inhabit it with joy and gratitude. Other days, it’s my mortal enemy attempting to kill me from within. But I want others with similar disabilities – who maybe can’t yet envision an end to the suffering – to see that we can live ‘normal-ish’ lives, that we can dream of accomplishing big things and then actually DO those big things. I TRI because it reminds me of how strong and resilient my body is and to celebrate that gift." ~ Sara Zeigler []