06/13/2026
I'll NEVER Stop thanking GOD!! For sparing me!!! Ni**as just don't even know " what PAIN and STRUGGLE really is!! I'm talking about MENTAL struggle!! I'm ashamed of how Lil Raymond" had to see the bs I was mentally dealing with!!! The PAIN " He felt!! Seeing me so vulnerable" so WEAK!!! Crazy how that kid still loves me the way he does!!! And can't say s**t about me to him!! !!! Man How many times a n***a tried to end it" from being TIRED! All the s**t I done " s**t I SEEN!!! It's like a bottle!! You carry s**t for so damn long, once that bottle fill up!! S**t going to go EVERYWHERE!!! Put pistols to my head cocked that bitch!! Bitch jammed" TWICE!!! Overdosed!! Died at Ben taubs!! MFn doctors didn't even know I was dead in the fuCCn HALLWAY!! Died 4times and revived!!! In ICU for 16hrs in and out.. machines dying right along with me!!! Haven't prayed in so long, I had to pray and ask GOD ! FuCC is the reason you won't let me leave DAWG!!! All these boys I have was my answer, they ALL have my temper, can't nobody " keep them in order and manage like me.. Like really heard a voice!! It's not about YOU!! Look in front of you!! I fell HARD!!! Brothers dying in my face!! In a shoot out we was in! Behind some BITCHASS n***a I thought was the stiffest MF coming up!! But the hoe ass n***a left us to DIE!!! WOKE UP WITH MY BOYS GONE CUH!!! And couldn't handle it!!! My ass ended up with heart failure, aneurysms, surgeries after surgeries, flashing lights now puts a n***a in seizures, du***ss epilepsy bs!! Man and I'm STILL here!! GOTTA be a reason!!! Know I got on a lot of ppls nerves, fr!! And I never said thank you for the ones that was there when a n***a constantly reached out!!!! S**t didn't go unnoticed... Man Thank You!!! On SOUL!!! Psychiatrist s have n***a feeling and doing better! Now I'm back up!! ALL the way up!!!! If MF going to be grateful, it's Me!!! I swear I appreciate Cha!! Half y'all was there and came through when my own family wasn't!!! Paid for a n***a meds etc etc!!! I ain't forgot, don't think I have!! On my KIDS!!💙💙♿♿
