09/16/2023
Rudy Horsemanship says
"Having a level of awareness of higher than the level of your ability kinda sucks, but you need awareness first.
It can be so frustrating!!! Back when you didn’t know your horse was blowing through the shoulder, or not bending, or not maintaining tempo, or didn’t bother you. Once you barely learn it, it becomes the bare minimum standard, yet you are not actually capable of doing it consistently!
I’ve written before about subconscious incompetence, conscious incompetence, conscious competence, subconscious competence…. (I’ll put a chart in the comments in case you’re not familiar with this idea, but it runs across all sports and all skill sets so you can easily Google it.)
When you get to where you are consciously competent (meaning if you concentrate really hard, you can effectively do something) for a few fleeting moments, but for the most part reside in conscious incompetence (meaning you are aware of the fact that you are incompetent at something) that is a seriously frustrating place to be!!!!
For example, you thought you knew how to bend a horse properly but then someone points out that you’ve been bending the horse’s neck at only the base of the neck, and the rib cage and the poll joint are not actually participating. Crap. Maybe you had a lesson where you achieved more correct bend for a few moments but it was with your trainer guiding you through it. Now you’re trying to ride on your own and you can’t get it to save your life!!!
Guess what, if you want to be good at anything, you are going to hit these types of moments a lot - and they don’t exactly give you the warm and fuzzy’s.  Some riders are excellent at recognizing that this is a great moment because they are about to dramatically increase their knowledge and skill set, but that doesn’t make it any easier to work through learning this new skill. It might, however, give you the patience to work through it, and stick with it, and give you the grace to know when to ask for help. Realize that you are about to make a huge improvement and it’s going to take a while! 
Pic of a student Learning just how much her OTTB requires of her!"
Having a level of awareness higher than the level of your ability kinda sucks, but you need awareness first.
It can be so frustrating!!! Back when you didn’t know your horse was blowing through the shoulder, or not bending, or not maintaining tempo, or didn’t bother you. Once you barely learn it, it becomes the bare minimum standard, yet you are not actually capable of doing it consistently!
I’ve written before about subconscious incompetence, conscious incompetence, conscious competence, subconscious competence…. (I’ll put a chart in the comments in case you’re not familiar with this idea, but it runs across all sports and all skill sets so you can easily Google it.)
When you get to where you are consciously competent (meaning if you concentrate really hard, you can effectively do something) for a few fleeting moments, but for the most part reside in conscious incompetence (meaning you are aware of the fact that you are incompetent at something) that is a seriously frustrating place to be!!!!
For example, you thought you knew how to bend a horse properly but then someone points out that you’ve been bending the horse’s neck at only the base of the neck, and the rib cage and the poll joint are not actually participating. Crap. Maybe you had a lesson where you achieved more correct bend for a few moments but it was with your trainer guiding you through it. Now you’re trying to ride on your own and you can’t get it to save your life!!!
Guess what, if you want to be good at anything, you are going to hit these types of moments a lot - and they don’t exactly give you the warm and fuzzy’s.  Some riders are excellent at recognizing that this is a great moment because they are about to dramatically increase their knowledge and skill set, but that doesn’t make it any easier to work through learning this new skill. It might, however, give you the patience to work through it, and stick with it, and give you the grace to know when to ask for help. Realize that you are about to make a huge improvement and it’s going to take a while! 
Pic of a student Learning just how much her OTTB requires of her!