08/31/2022
Building myself up has been a huge challenge.
After The loss of a few great friends of mine back in 2016, every year after has been a struggle to keep fighting on, I have my good days and I have my bad days.
The best help I could get was the help I allowed myself to receive, whether that was through counseling, a friend, a relative, or a colleague. We all deal with life, and part of that life is death. A little part of me died along with those I lost, So many times I just wanted to do the same as those who gave up. I just didn’t find it fair to keep going, what makes me different? Why do I get to keep going and they don’t? Why am I still here and they aren’t… all these answers I now have excepted will never be answered, but a huge part of me holds onto everything they gave me, whether it was friendship, love, warmth, good times, and all the things that mattered most, I take all that they gave me and live it out for them. Idk why I’m still here, but I do know I’m glad I’m slowly building myself back up and pushing forward. Even though the world around me has changed I am taking one step at a time to go forward.
Yes, I might be 29 and starting college, yes I might be married to a guy,
Yes, I might be getting in the best shape of my life, traveling the world.
Yes I might be in debt, yes things around me fall apart at times
Yes, I have my bad days.
And yes I am so thankful for every minute of it again.
Cheers to getting up every day and pushing forward. To all of those I lost in life, I hope you all know how much I miss you and try my hardest to live out all I’ve learned from you.