08/09/2024
I LOVE my confidence, my fearless action-taking, my fire, my passion, my boss bitch energy, my spiritual openness, my wisdom, my joy.
And…🫣
I have been facing some painful realities of how much I have prioritized those parts of me above all the others.
I am also…
Deeply afraid
Timid
Untrusting
Awkward
Stiff
Closed
Needy
Desperate
Controlling
Oooof 😮💨 How I’d love to keep pretending, but evolution is demanding something different.
Denying those parts deeply sabotages my life, my joy, & my relationships. When I get to sit on my shiny pedestal of ✨successful emotional wellness coach ✨💁🏻♀️
It’s laughable as I finally write the words.
We are all the same.
We are all afraid and brave.
We are all successful and failures.
We are all confident and insecure.
We are all independent and needy.
We are all inspiring and embarrassing.
We are all magic and human.
We only suffer when we pretend we aren’t all of the things.
As a coach who posts my life online, the story I tell myself is that it must look a certain way for people to trust me. When you go to a doctor, it’s not like you’re checking their instagram. They get to stay in this picturesque fantasy of who you hope they are even though if you really knew the depths of their experience you’d probably feel entirely different.
Fantasy. We love to believe that anyone…the celebrities we love, our mentors, our therapists, our coaches, our teachers, our parents, our grandparents, or our favorite Instagram influencers *figured it out*.
No one has figured it out.
And even though I am deeply confident in the work I offer the world, it is important that I remain FULLY human while I do it. Where I can be both inspirational and wounded.
I’ll be here on this account sharing things that deeply changed my life and the lives of countless others. AND, just because I do so does not mean I’m immune to rollercoaster of it all, with you.
To loving all our parts 🥂