10/01/2025
Into The Abyss
10/01/19
We rolled into Torrington, Wyoming bright and early on Monday, September 30, 2019. It was the day before the antelope hunting season opened, and we had been driving all night so that we could do a little scouting before our hunt started. There were 5 of us with tags, my two older brothers (Clint and Junior), our dad (Ray), Junior’s daughter (Lexie), and myself. Our goal for the day was to find a few groups of antelope that we could hunt the next day, and then head back to our hotel so we could catch up on some sleep. We had been to this particular area hunting a couple times before with some pretty good success, so we were confident that we’d be able to use our past experiences to find some antelope and make a game plan for opening morning. We topped the truck off with gas, grabbed some snacks for the road, and took off on the 45 minute drive north to the property we’d be hunting.
This part of the High Plains region is primarily cattle grazing country. The rolling hills are covered in prairie grass, and the sandy soil does not produce much in terms of agriculture. There are some irrigated alfalfa fields, but aside from those it’s just grassy hills separated by big valleys with sandstone bluffs. The sandstone does not stand up well to erosion, and over the years all the wind and rain has shaped out some steep and jagged cliffs with little crevices scattered throughout them. This area is not for the faint of heart when it comes to survival. The animals are exposed to the elements at all times, and the cover is very limited. I have a new level of respect for the animals and the people that call this place home, compared to Iowa they have some extremely harsh living conditions. The ranch we were going to be hunting was filled with these grassy hills and sandstone bluffs, and little did I know how familiar I’d become with that landscape over the next 24 hours.
We turned off the highway onto the long gravel lane that led back to the rancher's house, and we were greeted by the rancher’s son and his dog as we pulled up to the house. We were stopping by to let them know we’d made it in, and we wanted to say thank you for allowing us to hunt again. The boy told us that his dad and his older brother were off elk hunting in Western Wyoming, and that he’d stayed back to help his mom tend to the livestock and keep up with the ranch. While visiting with the rancher’s wife she told us that they had suffered a pretty big loss earlier that fall, and she wasn’t sure how much luck we’d have this time out. She told us about a hail storm that had rolled through with softball sized hail, and when they were out checking their cows they found dozens of antelope that had been killed from the storm. She told us that the majority of the antelope they’d found were does that had huddled over their calves trying to shield them from the hail, and it was a very somber reminder that Mother Nature has no mercy. Pulling out of the driveway that morning I couldn’t help but feel bad for those animals. I knew that I was out there to take an animal’s life, and while it may seem somewhat contradictory, I knew that if I did my part I would give that animal a much better death than any that Mother Nature would give.
We drove a few miles down the road from the house to a section of pasture that we’d hunted in years past. This particular property spanned several hundred acres and had lanes called two-tracks that led throughout the property. We followed the two-track for about half a mile before we saw our first critter of the day, a lone coyote that was cutting across a hillside towards a big valley. Every hunter knows that regardless of what you’ve set out to find for the day, the second you see a coyote it’s now a coyote hunt! I threw the truck in park while Clint grabbed our rifles and bullets, and we took off towards the valley to try to get a shot. Unfortunately the coyote was keen to our plan and had already put enough distance between us so that we couldn’t get a shot, but it was a great opportunity to stretch our legs after spending so many hours crammed in the truck. We loaded back up and continued on the two-track until we reached an area where the hills dropped down into a large valley with steep and jagged sandstone bluffs that seemed to continue on forever. Clint and Junior had both killed antelopes in this area before, and we knew it would be a good spot to find some more. We parked the truck and all got out to start glassing the area and try to get an eye on some animals that we could potentially hunt the next morning.
Clint and I decided to walk to another hillside about 200 yards south of our truck to get a different vantage point of the large valley. With so many nooks and crannies throughout the valley an antelope could easily be hidden and go completely undetected, potentially giving a false impression that none were there at all. We had made it about 50 yards from the truck when two giant mule deer jumped up not 20 yards in front of us! We had seen a handful of mulies in this area before, but they had just been does. This was not an area with a big population and it was definitely not known for producing big mule deer. Now, standing right in front of us, were a pair of trophy class bucks that were pushing 30” wide with huge splits on each side. As they bounced off into the valley we looked back to the truck to see the rest of our crew standing there just as shocked as we were! Clint and I continued on to the hillside we wanted to scout from and were able to spot a few antelope bedded down on the opposite side of the valley. We walked back to the truck to make a game plan with everyone on where to hunt the next morning, and then we loaded back up to make the trip back to the hotel.
We were cruising down the highway past some neighboring ranches on our way back to town when we spotted a large group of antelope out on a hillside. The land they were on happened to be a small piece of public hunting, but it was so small that we had never bothered to stop and check it out. There was a driveway off the highway that was only big enough for one truck, so we pulled in and hopped in the bed of the truck to take a better look. There were around a dozen antelope altogether and a couple of nice bucks that were definitely worth hunting. Clint and I decided that the next morning we would have Junior drop us off there while he took Lexie and our dad to the ranch we’d scouted earlier. We figured if nothing else we could spend our morning hunting that piece of public land, and if we were unsuccessful we’d go back to the ranch after lunch. We cruised back to Torrington, grabbed some food, and hit the hotel to get rested for the next day.
Our alarms went off at 4:30 that next morning, and we awoke to temps in the low 30’s with a light freezing mist coming down. This was not the most ideal scenario to have with a 45 minute drive and a hunt that relied heavily on being able to see long distances, but we were there to hunt so we had to play the hand we’d been dealt. We made it to the piece of public land about 30 minutes before legal shooting light, Clint and I grabbed our rifles and packs, and we agreed to meet up with Junior, Lexie, and our dad back at the parking spot at noon. We set off into the unknown as their tail lights faded out of sight, and little did we know our adventure was just getting started.
Clint and I had walked about half a mile across a large valley to the hillside where we’d spotted the antelope the previous afternoon and sat down behind some rocks to glass another valley below us. It had only been legal shooting light for a few minutes when we spotted a couple antelope coming down the opposite hillside into the valley we were overlooking. One of the antelope was a pretty nice buck, and Clint immediately got his rifle set up to take a shot. The antelope worked down the hillside in less than a minute, but he had also spotted us on top of the hill in the process. Their ability to pick out the smallest movement is sometimes unimaginable, but it’s also the biggest key to their survival in an area as vast as this was. The antelope stopped at roughly 400 yards, and we knew it was now or never. Clint had been practicing long range shots for several months and is a bit of a sharpshooter, so I was not surprised a bit when he executed a perfect shot. He hit him perfectly behind the shoulder, and we watched the buck run a short distance before falling over at the bottom of the valley. We couldn’t believe that within 10 minutes of the season being open we already had one antelope down, and after a short celebration with some high-fives and sailor talk we grabbed our gear and took off down the hillside to go check out his speed goat.
We had only made it about 75 yards when Clint motioned for me to get down. When you’ve grown up hunting with someone your entire life you operate like a well trained team, and sometimes all it takes is a hand motion for the other person to know exactly what’s going on. I knew he had spotted more antelope, so I hit the deck and got my rifle set up and ready to take a shot. In nearly the same exact spot that Clint had just shot his antelope another pair of bucks had appeared. We were close to 500 yards from them at this point, but I was confident I could make the shot. I shouldered my rifle to find that my scope was so fogged over that I could barely see. I’m not quite the shot that my older brother is, and when I squeezed the trigger my bullet hit just below the buck. He took off running up the valley towards the antelope Clint had shot and stopped at roughly 470 yards, but by the time I’d chambered another round my scope was so fogged over I could not see a thing. Clint handed me his rifle, told me where to hold, and when I squeezed the trigger off on the second shot I dropped that antelope right in his tracks. Two antelope down, within 100 yards of each other, and all within the first 30 minutes of the season. We could not believe our luck!! We celebrated, went and took a look at our harvests, took some pictures, and got them field dressed so that they could start cooling off and prevent any meat from spoiling. It was barely after 9, and we had nearly 3 hours to kill before the rest of our group would get back. Clint and I are both pretty gungho, so we decided we would just cut across country to the ranch where Junior was hunting with Lexie and our dad. The rancher’s property happened to border the far side of the public land we were hunting, and after looking at the map on our phones we figured within an hour we’d be able to find them. Let me preface the rest of this story with this, you should only rely on your phone maps if your service is great and the land is flat. While some people may believe in a flat earth, I can promise you that is not the case in Wyoming.
We’d been walking about 45 minutes when Clint asked me to check my phone and see how far we’d made it. The fog had set in and cut our visibility to maybe 150 yards at best, and we’d been walking up and down hills the entire time. I opened my map to discover that I had no idea where we really were, but judging by our last known location we had only made it about a mile. We had quite a ways left to go, and we’d gotten off track on our cross country trek and wandered on to one of the neighboring ranches instead of onto the ranch we’d intended to be on. We continued on for another 30 minutes and could finally make out some windbreaks that the rancher had for his cattle. We recognized these windbreaks right away because you could see them from the highway that we’d driven on the day before, and we then realized that we were a couple miles off course. By this point turning back was no quicker than continuing on, so we adjusted our route and kept trekking. We picked up the pace and were really hustling across the countryside trying to make up for lost time. Although we were essentially lost with no real idea where we were going, the fog had started to lift and we were being treated to some truly remarkable views. There we were in the middle of nowhere, with absolutely no sign of civilization as far as you could see in any direction, and with nothing but time to enjoy it. We carried on for the next two and a half hours crossing over hills and valleys, climbing bluffs, and visiting the entire way. What we thought would be a short hour long hike turned into a four hour cross country trek spanning several miles.
We finally got cell service when we were about a half-mile off the gravel road that we’d taken to the ranch the previous afternoon, and I called Junior to let him know where we were. They had driven to the public land driveway to pick us up, but when we weren’t there they drove back to the ranch thinking that maybe we were still hunting. Lexie and my dad had both filled their tags, and shortly after meeting up with them we spotted another one that Junior ended up getting. We loaded up their three antelope and then went back to get the antelope that Clint and I had killed. Our antelope were almost a mile off the road, and there was no way to get closer to them with a vehicle. Junior had built a game cart out of an old harness racing cart using some mountain bike tires and a large plastic game tote, so Clint, Lexie, and I took off across the hills to gather out antelope. Lexie was only 14 at the time and barely 100 pounds soaking wet, but she is as tough and determined as any human I’ll ever meet. She insisted on pulling the cart, so we quartered the antelope, loaded them in the cart, and took off back towards the truck. She pulled it across the valley we were in, several hundred feet up the next hill, down through another valley, several hundred feet up two more sets of hills, and did it all without taking a single break. I kept telling her to rest or to let me have a turn, and finally about 200 yards from the truck she set the cart down. I can still picture the smirk she had when she said “It’s flat, I think you can probably handle it now.” I’ve always been proud of her, but I’ll guarantee you that there was not an uncle on earth that was more proud of their niece. We got our antelope loaded in our coolers, situated all of our gear in the back, and took off on the trip back to town.
We arrived back at the hotel a little before dark that evening and iced down all of our antelope for the long trip back home the next day. My dad was worn out and decided to hang out at the hotel while the rest of us went up town to get some food. We shared stories of the day’s adventures, told Lexie stories of our young and wild years, cracked jokes, and laughed the entire night away. To this day we still laugh about that night and some of the inside jokes we made while some folks were probably trying to enjoy a quiet and peaceful supper. It was the first hunting trip she had joined us on, and it was one of the most fun experiences of my entire life.
I look back on that trip and can’t help but smile. We had some amazing success on the hunt itself being able to fill all 5 tags on opening day, and we filled our freezers with some great wild game that most people will never have the chance to try. The horns from our antelope are on our walls to serve as a lifelong reminder of the memories we created as well as to pay tribute to the sacrifices those animals gave so that we could provide for our family. I think back to what that rancher’s wife told us about the antelope dying from the hail, and it makes me respect the life those animals live even more. I think back to the cross country trip that spanned almost 7 miles that I shared with my brother, and I appreciate the hours we spent just living in the moment God gave us that day. It is hard to sum up in words what it means to be a hunter, but the experiences it allows us to live are truly irreplaceable. I have a picture saved on my phone from Clint and I walking through the fog that day and it’s captioned “We’re walking into the abyss.” Looking at that picture, looking at my antelope’s horns, and writing this story put me right back into that moment. It is a great reminder that hunting and life in general go hand in hand. You may encounter some unexpected obstacles, it might take you on a path unintended, and it may not be the result you’re after, but in the end the experience and memories that it gives you are the things that matter most.