09/21/2023
Flashback to 10 years ago:
I was training for my first bodybuilding competition.
I was spot on with my nutrition.
I worked out 2 times a day for 1.5-2hrs each.
I meal prepped EVERYTHING I ATE.
I got at least 8 hrs of sleep.
I learned posing from the best in the business.
I got advice throughout my whole prep from a former Mr. USA.
I did every single thing I was asked to do, and I did it 100%...BUT I HAD NO BUSINESS TRYING TO LOSE WEIGHT AND I HAD NO BUSINESS COMPETING.
My mind was inside out and upside down. All I thought about was looking shredded. Food and exercise consumed my whole life. I never did anything else, ever. I never went out to eat. I never went out with friends. I never stayed out late (partially because I’d fall asleep at 6pm). My body was so depleted and my mind was even worse.
Prior to this contest prep, I had lost about 40 pounds...but I still wasn’t happy with my body so I figured I would be if I had a competition body.
But the crazy thing was, I didn’t even like how I looked at the show! I spent the entire time comparing my body to other competitors…
Let me rephrase myself, I spent the ENTIRE time thinking I was less than the other competitors.
“Damn, her legs are more cut than mine.”
“She has a 6-pack and I don’t”
“Her shoulders look better than mine.”
“Her last spread is so much better than mine.”
“There’s no way I'll beat her…or her…or her”
I couldn’t celebrate the crazy work I had put in because I was too busy still picking out the things that “still needed work”…
Like I said before: I HAD NO BUSINESS TRYING TO LOSE WEIGHT, AND I DEFINITELY HAD NO BUSINESS TRYING TO COMPETE…
And honestly, The same holds true for some of you. If you’ve been “dieting” and losing weight for a long time, you need a break. Your body needs a break and your mind needs a break.
If you “cant” because you’re scared to gain any weight back, your mindset is unhealthy. I know that’s not fun to hear, but it’s true.
I said all of that to say this: I’ve been there. I’ve been so wrapped up in how my body looks that I couldn’t actually celebrate myself or other people. It sucks...it really sucks. It’s miserable because it consumes your whole life…
But I’ve also learned how to combat a lot of these thoughts, so if you’re wanting to take a step in the direction of freedom, I’d love to help.
In a few days, I'll be rereleasing MET. It was a course Raegan and I ran 8ish years ago and the focus is on long-term physical and mental health.
If you’ve lived with the fear of gaining weight and have a hard time truly loving who you are, this course is definitely for you! There's more to come but in case your mind is playing tricks on you today, you’re worthy to be celebrated and you're worthy to live in freedom!
Thanks for reading😊