08/30/2023
I have GOOD NEWS, I have okay news and I have CRAP news.
The crap news is my cancer came back. About a week after celebrating my 2 year cancerversary I had a bone scan scheduled because I’ve been having awful leg pain that I chalked up as half marathon training. Turns out - that B is baaaaack.
Even worse crap news? It’s everywhere. It’s in my bones, liver and just found out there is a tiny spot in my brain. It’s A LOT for one person to handle this sort of news all within a week - let me tell you.
Okay news: my pet scan showed it’s not anywhere else than what we already knew ! YAY.
Good news: my fight isn’t over. Double YAY. I have tons of options and as long as my body can handle my treatment I’ll be on this chemo for a long time. THAT is my prayer… that my body handles my current treatment for as long as it can. Once my cancer starts spreading again that’s when I’ll have to chance chemo courses. But cancer and chemo for me are now indefinitely. 😞🫠
Right now it’s hard. I’m leaning into God and my people and my babies.
Please please prayer warriors keep me in your prayers. Add me to your prayer chains. That’s what I need right now - I need to feel God wrap himself around me. 🫶🏼 and I just need time. Am I scared? Yea. Am I sad? Absolutely. Do I believe in God, His plan and that my time here isn’t done? A million times yes.