10/11/2023
I want to talk about the last 3 years. This picture may not show a huge difference to some. But it means everything to me.
On the left, I was limiting what I was eating. Always counting what I’m eating. Making sure I take in “A” the right food, “B” working out, “C” sleep and so on and so forth. I was so focused on being just this pilar of health that I completely forgot about the fact of life and living it. I was mentally in a completely different headspace. I didn’t truly love myself back then. And it’s so sad and hurts me to say that out loud. I didn’t feel loved. And constantly felt like I’m not good enough. For anything.
On the right, I am more happy in my life physically, spiritually and emotionally than I have ever been. I’m not eating like I’m fixing to step on stage every day. I’m living my life and have made such a positive nutrition lifestyle that I no longer count what I eat and just enjoy it. I fuel myself with good food and it’s no longer at the foremost of my thought process. I have worked SO HARD on my internal battles that things I use to think would never leave, no longer have a place taking up space and continuing to cause me pain. My relationship…..God my relationship….I just have to thank God so much because I could’ve missed the absolute best thing to ever happen to me. And lastly, my children. I have become the mom I have always wanted to be 🤍
I finally drug out and I mean DRUG out Casey….and I can’t help but cry when I think about it. The person that felt bullied for so long. Not understood. Talked about. Just felt like no one cared……that little person inside me finally made it to a place where she can just be. And I know I am so loved for just being me. All my weirdness. The scenic route that I take to talk lol. The sensitive side that cries at the dumbest things. Past pain that I can share isn’t looked down on but talked through, heard and cared for. The best part is that my loves are all still here. And they still love me for it.
So workout for you. Workout for your little person inside that’s hurt if you need to. Heal yourself. Workout because it makes you feel good. Workout if you want to look good. Trust me we all want to lol. But make the life you love and grow in it 🫶🏼
