07/17/2023
As I sit here in my apartment living room, the persistent ticking of the second-hand on a clock a friend of mine made me consumes my attention. As that second hand makes its way round from one to two, two to three, three to four and so on, I am reminded that time waits for nothing and nobody. Those seconds keep going by, turning into minutes, then hours, then days, weeks, months and even years. Before we know it, a lifetime will have gone by ...
When we experience loss, we wonder how time can just go by. I recall during a recent loss of a dear friend, I was angered by the audacity of life to move on, people continuing their day to day like everything was the same. How could they keep going, when my life felt like it was at a stand still. The sadness had consumed me completely, I couldn't function and I couldn't be present with anything besides my grief. People were waiting on me to snap out of it, become normal again, be the positive chirpy person I usually am, find meaning and God's grace in all of it, but none of that was helping me. The truth is, a part of me died with my friend and there was no coming back from it. I just couldn't let it go - I couldn't come to terms with the fact that she was gone. I still don't think I have, not entirely.
Michael is my friend who made me this clock. He never ceases to amaze me. His creativity, time and patience continues to blow me away.
The face of the clock is designed with a blue sky and subtle clouds. Amidst the blue, there are two beautiful angel wings, and below them an imprint in fluorescent yellow letters that read "SUSANA."
Susana is a dear sweet friend of mine whom I was blessed to know for only about 2 years. (By the way, I will always refer to our dearly departed in present tense. Because for me, she is still present, not physically - but always in spirit. For me, she is and always will be)
Susana returned home to her Lord earlier this year - January 28th to be precise. She was in a car wreck and unfortunately lost her life while being in surgery.
Whenever I sit on this coach, and I hear those seconds go by, don't get me wrong, that ticking sound is a pestering annoying sound, but the annoyance is so important, because to me, it reinforces the one truth, and that is, our time in this physical world is limited and every second that goes by is a second we will never ever get back. The pestering sound of the second-hand is grounding, and is an invitation to me - an inquiry into what do I want to do at this moment that will matter most?
As I share this, I want to extend these questions to you too. Can you take a moment here and now and ask yourself, what can I do in this moment that will make a difference? What can I shift away from, and how can I redirect myself in a way that fills my cup? How can I make a difference right now? What can I do in this moment that I will be so glad I did?
I wish to continue to remind myself and all of you, that the more intentionally and consciously we live, the more fulfilling our lives will become. It takes effort, and it takes commitment. It takes will, and consistency, and it take being a part of a community that holds the same value and commitment to living a purpose driven life. So thank you for being in this space, and holding yourselves accountable. Thank you for committing to yourself and to your life, and thank you for the impact you make in this world. You matter and you are needed!
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Thank you for your light and I wish you a wonderful week ahead. Make it awesome!!
