03/21/2022
When I was about 6ish, I was playing with the neighborhood kids all of whom were older than me.
They were all on their bikes and I remember wishing so bad that I could ride a bike too!
I asked a few of them if they could teach me but obvi they were too busy playing.
When one of the kids left their bike unattended, I internally decided “FUs all! If you won’t teach me, I will teach myself”
“I will not be denied the freedom to play with rest of you.”
I’m not sure those were my exact 6 year old words but that is how I felt.
Several falls and scraped knees later, that day, little but mighty 6 year old me, taught herself to ride a bike.
At 6, my internal story became “I have to do it all on my own.” I accumulated more stories that confirmed my bias.
While one can admire that willful attitude, without properly guiding my strong will, I learned to operate in low frequency masculine energy.
Because high masculine energy is about giving, when we're in the low masculine, we close ourselves off from receiving.
Luckily I learned the error of my ways and have shifted this pattern.
To shift this at the root, it’s important to understand where we “do not feel safe or supported.”
Start here:
Be aware of when you turn away help. (without judgement)
Start asking for help. With the expectation that you will receive it.
Notice where you are trying to control 😉
Frequently throughout your day, look around and remind yourself that you are safe. (if in fact you are)
Remind yourself of all the times you trusted the Universe and things worked out.
