09/23/2024
The best part of losing your way is that you get the opportunity for a hero’s journey. Picking yourself up out of hopeless addiction and depression is no easy task. It takes courage and determination. You can quit drinking, but still live as a dry drunk; relying on willpower, support groups, and a hope that Jesus will come along and save you. There’s a reason why addicts have about a 15% chance of making it out alive. The addiction monster is cunning and baffling. Intentional psychedelic use allows ego death and a rewiring of your brain, creating positive neural pathways. Changing your ontology, and opening up the doors for self love. Alcohol was a great tool to quell my anxiety, shakiness, and low self esteem, until it caused more problems than it cured. It left me lost and alone at the end of my rope. I want to thank the psychedelic gods for providing the path, for the inspiration, and friends and family who have supported me on this journey into recovery. But most importantly I want to thank me.
With this newfound self love and momentum, I wanted to take a trip to test myself and face my fears. I am terrified of heights, avy danger, motorcycles, and not being in control of situations. A head first plunge in getting comfortable in uncomfortable situations. Tripping through South America has been a wonderful journey that I will never forget. Skiing pow on big lines in Patagonia, followed by 1090km over the Andes across Peru on a underpowered piece of s**t child’s motorcycle with a belly full of fungi was nothing short of epic. My mind carried me farther than my body or bike could. Using the tools I have crafted to help me deal with incredibly stressful situations, stay clam and enjoy the journey into the unknown. Thanks to and for organizing these wild experiences. I had the time of my life and met some wonderful souls along the way. I’m excited for the path forward, squeezing the most out of my human experience. It’s not all butterflies and bl****bs. The ying and yang of it all. If I continue to lead with love and light, I can live with peace and equanimity, and I will be alright 🧙♂️👽♥️🍄🧘♂️