12/15/2023
Great meets, not so great meets, totals - they come and go. Character is what’s lasting and it’s the core of a champion. Well said, well done, with .repost
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Proud of my teammate and friend, for her brilliant performance at this last competition with PRs and usurping me in the Olympic Qualification rankings. There’s still a couple of competitions left & I hope to be able to put together something respectable. Maybe even bounce back and get in better rankings!
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This training cycle was one of the best I’ve ever had and going into the competition was one of the smoothest experiences I’ve had in a long time. This Qualification process has really been tough on all of us and it’s really shining a spotlight on the things I really have been struggling with but can hide or work through when things are good.
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This year I was diagnosed with ADHD and have been going to therapy and working on that as well as depressive and anxious thoughts. My health has really taken a beating with bronchitis, shingles, ringworm, and constant gi distress.
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I know I’m not physically far off from who and what I am as an athlete, but reconfiguring my brain and having a healthy mindset and body and a functional, quality of life has been a lot of work. It’s taxing. It’s also vital to me making it through the process and giving me hope for the next phase of my life.
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I cried a lot yesterday. I didn’t cry because of losing. I’m a very, gracious loser. I’m especially ok with it if you’re better than me. Mary was better that day. I cried because I take great pride in how I perform. Competition days are usually the best of me on display. I feel like I’m not doing my best though I’m trying very, very hard.
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Anywho! Enjoy this special moment of Mary inviting me to share in her win and listen to our national anthem. I’ll take this weekend off and get back to training on Monday