09/18/2026
I know they want me to keep going
To keep doing the things that bring joy to my heart and pursue my passions
Because that’s who they were. They were a person who found the joy in every situation, even in their last few days. Their ability to still smile and joke and laugh quite literally staring death in the face is something that will impact me for the rest of my life
But I’ll tell ya man, the sadness, the anger, the confusion and the grief really comes in waves.
Admittedly, their memory has really kept my fire burning the last few weeks… because I know how mad they would be with me if I used them as a reason to slow down
But it’s hard. Because there are days I just want to sit there and remember and miss them. And carving out that time is a struggle because I have to find ways to just stop.
Take the time you need to to process what’s going on around you and what’s affecting you.
But find ways to honor their memory by putting one foot in front of the other