09/01/2026
something people don’t expect: even after losing 150lbs and years of coaching other women through this exact thing, i still catch myself thinking about food and training the old way sometimes.
the specific pattern i’m working through right now - cardio used to only exist in my head as a weight loss tool. now that i actually care about performance, about getting better at running itself, i have to consciously remind myself that a training run isn’t supposed to be “doing something” to my body. it’s just training.
that distinction sounds small but it’s taken actual, repeated effort to internalize.
i think there’s an assumption that once you’ve done the work, once you’re the coach, this stuff stops being work and you’re just past it. it doesn’t - old wiring doesn’t disappear just because you understand the theory now. you just get better at catching it faster.
and thats the most realistic thing i can tell you about this whole process - it doesn’t just resolve itself, you get quicker at noticing when the old thinking shows back up.
being able to actually catch and call out those thoughts as they occur is what’ll allow you to move through them instead of falling back into their spiral
