11/11/2025
After the whole saga, along with the nasty rumours, I suppose the part that stung the most were the false stories being shared, and worse, believed.
From accusations of being "big bakery", to rumours that my family were from money, or that we don't know anything about pastry... it was frustrating for me in part because I felt like these untruths stole from all the efforts of my team. I asked myself, "Isn't it obvious how much hard work goes into what we do?" "Why are there people online saying things about my family when they don't actually know us?", "Do I really have to share about how much sacrifice goes into keeping all this alive?"
Then there are nights like these. Nights where I find myself alone, again, just working on a different problem... tonight it's painting a random unfinished wall. Quiet reflections to realize that no one is going to praise you for this work, but you choose to do it anyway - because you know who you are and why it matters to you. Moments that you realize all these random negative voices online that believe fictitious rumours don't actually know who you are and what you stand for.
I took this video because it was just another humbling moment I wanted to remember. As I watched part of it whilst editing, and noticed the oven scars and sugar burns, I am reminded that none of these voices really matter. They don't know my story. They don't know the decades I spent in this industry. They don't have my memories of cleaning flooded toilets, or the many nights (even as a little girl) folding boxes or decorating sugarpaste wedding cakes, or making kuehs or pastries. They don't know the scary seasons of industry bullies and tackling saboteurs, of fighting through financial collapses, or SARS, gangsters, or covid. They don't know the fights, the tears, and the occasional darkness and the wrestle to find light in those seasons. They don't know my nights alone like these.
"If you live for the praises of men, you will die by their criticisms."
There is wisdom in simply choosing to live as a "good and faithful servant" unto God. If there is praise I would like, perhaps it's best from the highest authority.