19/12/2021
I guess this is worth posting :)
3 years ago i didnt think it was able. sure I wanted to go heavier but i didnt think it was possible for me or that would it take so long. Honestly, i had trouble to fall asleep the day before cause this was on my mind all the time.
While pushing up i had this tingling sensation in my brain telling me"come on, do 1 more". thats how i felt despite the expression on my face and the slow speed going up. But i did not want to push it too much. and i was so freaking happy for the rest of day. really, genuinely happy.
about that it took so long? i want these personal wins fast and im having trouble accepting these things take time. Although fitness community is filled with unnecessary fluff, there are a lot of individuals, people i've met over time that i listen and take their advice to heart, especially the mantra "just enjoy the process", "dont rush things", "these things take time". Funny enough, throughout this journey I had discovered some of my own personal flaws and psychological issues. Is this a perfect way to solve them? No, but it helps.
Well, now that this is achieved, 4 plate dip is next. peace! 💪