28/08/2026
The first half of 2026 was about surviving.
After losing my sister last year, I was doing everything I could to keep showing up. For my clients. For my family. For the people around me.
But behind the scenes, I was struggling big time, the breaking point for me was when the panic attacks started.
I was trying to carry grief that I didn’t really know how to process. Some days it genuinely felt like I was falling under the water, coming up for air, and then being pulled under again.
I eventually realised that surviving wasn’t enough anymore. I wanted to heal. I wanted to move forward. I wanted to feel like myself again.
So in the second half of this year, I decided to invest in myself. I did 3 things.
1. Grief counselling:
Because I was struggling to process my grief on my own, and I needed somewhere safe to work through it rather than just trying to keep going. EMDR is incredible!
2. Powerlifting-specific physio:
Because I was sick of being in pain every day. It was starting to affect more than just my training, it was affecting my life. I needed to stop accepting pain as something I just had to put up with and actually get the right support.
3. Nutrition coaching:
Because I knew I needed guidance, but I also knew I had some mental things to work through after my experience with my last nutritionist. I needed to rebuild trust around nutrition and have someone support me through that process.
And honestly, investing in myself has felt uncomfortable at times, counseling is scary, facing things head on, turns out losing my sister was the tip of a very large ice-berg 🥹
I’m used to being the coach. The one helping other people. The one telling everyone else that asking for help is a strength.
I had to start believing that for myself, too.
I don't think investing in yourself always looks like a gym membership, a new program or buying something that makes you feel productive.
Sometimes it looks like admitting “I can't keep doing this on my own.”
The first half of 2026 was about surviving.
The second half is about giving myself the support I need to heal, grow and thrive. 🤍
