21/06/2026
Well today I sat a rear for the first time.
Keep in mind I came to riding late in the game, as a 38 year old 12 years ago.
Unbelievably fast and scary.
Actually it felt unbelievable as it happened so fast it was over before I processed what had happened.
After processing, I know what preceded it, I know how it could have been avoided. I feel sorry I put him in that situation
I learned 3 important things.
1) My body instinctively leaned forward as it happened and I automatically went for a one rein stop once we were reunited with earth (Thank God 😥). So I have some instinctive skills I am grateful are there.
2) After thinking it through, I understand how it happened and how to try to avoid such a situation in the future.
3) Each and everyone of our horses, and us humans, behave in unexpected and non rational ways when put under too much pressure. What is too much pressure you ask? Totally depends on the individual; horse or human. That out of character behaviour does not define who you are on a general day to day basis. It does not mean my horse “is a rearer” , it does not mean a human is “off the deep end”. It means he/she reached threshold and was not themselves at that moment; though it does indicate a certain level at which they become overwhelmed and perhaps need to build more resilience and/or skills. It is simply to be human to “lose it” at times especially under pressure; just as it is to simply be horse and “lose it” at times.
So often we can label a horse as their behaviour. Oh he’s a bucker, oh she’s a rearer, look out. Kit is 6, he’s never reared before, may never again. But he might, it is after all part of natural horse behaviour in certain situations. It would be all too simple to get off him, decide he’s dangerous, and too much for me to handle. And 5 years ago with my knowledge then I would have done just that.
But today I saw it as a natural reaction to the pressure he was put under. I was proud that I stayed on and my body responded safely with a lean forward, and then a one rein stop. I reassured him, certainly no punitive thoughts, and let him move forward to help relieve the pent up energy. I am eternally grateful to my friend Amy Crawshaw (only 17!) that was with me who reassured me and expressed the sentiment “it’s just energy Sarah, it’s all expressed energy whether we label it good or bad. You gave him nowhere to go with a surge of frightened energy so he went up. What was he supposed to do?”
What an incredible day of learning! ❤️
Photo of Kit, his beautiful Mum Ellie and I the day he was born 🫶🏻