16/09/2026
š„ WHEN YOUR BODY MAKES THE DECISION
Today I was supposed to be back on the mats.
But Iām not going.
My back is getting worse. Standing and walking hurt, sleeping hurts, and lately my legs sometimes suddenly give way while walking.
That changes things.
Last year I already went through examinations, MRI and scans. Back then, surgery wasnāt necessary. But with the symptoms increasing, my appointment has now been moved forward from October 22 to this Monday.
And I know surgery might become the next step.
The difficult part?
I wanted to earn my blue belt before surgery. šµš„
That became my target: earn it, then go into surgery and rehabilitation knowing what Iām fighting to return to.
And despite my back, my BJJ is going really well right now. Iām learning, improving and loving being on the mats.
But I also have to face the possibility that my body might force me to stop before I reach that goal.
That will be a mental battle.
Iām used to pushing through. But maybe sometimes strength isnāt about pushing harder.
Maybe itās knowing when to protect your ability to fight another day.
No BJJ today.
Monday, we find out what comes next.
The goal hasnāt disappeared.
The route towards it might just have to change. šš„
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